The few people I have in my life have known me long enough that if I point something out like this they take a serious look at it. And while they may not overtly buy into it they don't overtly reject it either. Not going to bore you now with a series of events from this summer... But the obstacles were ludicrous. Every time I found a way out of the events that were occurring something you could not have possibly anticipated in any actual world outside of a tragic comedy would occur. Seem very clear to me that something someone was caging me into a future and blocking me from any alternatives. And yes I often wondered was it designed to make me go mad to make me act in a way that was to anyone watching insane...? Based on the events I can't say that it wasn't. Still can't wrap my head around it. But if that's the case I intend to break the matrix. Just not sure how yet. Maybe it's as simple as not breaking down not going mad and not doing something.... Well something that it seems like the universe wants me to do as it's cornering me into few to no choices.