So seeing as the old reddit sub got nuked for hate speech, and seeing how insanely hard it is to share exposition, and experiences on anything remotely negative about the clownery that is the trans movement. I managed to find this little corner of the internet.

I am a female, my dad became a tim at when I turned 15, leaving me with the emotional labor of caring for my at the time sick mom, and my child siblings. Because of this I had to drop out of high school around 16, start taking ged classes and working part time in fast food and doing various odd jobs because the ssi money wasn't enough to cover basic needs and necessities. Because of this I was deprived of a basic education, and never got to experience a normal teenage life. When my mom died and my siblings grew up enough to start college or get married and have kids, I was stuck being a poor person because of my ged, and college applications were rejected. In desperation I tried researching ways of learning a trade with little to no start up cost and minimal education. And thats how I got into crime scene cleaning.

The thing is anything regarding the death industry is in high demand, from funeral homes to biohazard clean up, but unlike being a mortician which requires going to a trade school, being a crime scene cleaner in the us was only one or two certifications, all of them really simple to get, and they're state based so if you have the capacity to self learn and self teach and research on the internet, you can easily take a test to determine that you are capable of dealing with bodily fluids and harsh chemicals, the only tricky part is getting a license that allows to you transport said materials by vehicles, which because that part of the industry is in high demand, most businesses will happily train you if they think that your a employee willing to stick around. but the thing is despite it increasing my personal prosperity its really opened my eyes to the world of lonely suicides. Now don't get me wrong, the idea of transing never sat right with me on an inherent subconscious level, when my dad jumped ship to live as a woman, and therefore damning me to the fate of having to grow up fast, I hated him with every fiber of my being.

I mean if it weren't for him doing that I probably wouldn't have needn't to struggle. But I managed to put that aside because surviving requires energy that I needed, and that I cant waste or nursing old wounds and grudges. but what my new job at the time showed me the reality and final conclusion of tims. That is suicide, possibly out of regret, in an apartment full of depravity. Its mostly tims who commit suicide, and the common denominator is and this is a hypothesis, not a guaranteed stat, is after they get srs bottom surgery. You know where they invert the penis to make a never healing wound that they try to pass as a true and honest vagina? When we do suicide clean ups or even clean ups of homicides or undiscovered deaths, we see details of person life that they hide away from others, sometimes its sad, sometimes its embarrassing, sometimes its their whole lives thrown into an incinerator. Its not just a team of crime scene cleaners clean up just the affected parts, literally everything in the room at times gets thrown into an incinerator to be burned up. I can tell if I am cleaning up after a death of an trans induced individual because just how they appear on the internet its in your face, its degenerate, and sometimes horrifying. We literally at one time had to stop a clean up halfway because CSA material was found on polaroids in a dresser to call the cops for them to collect evidence. One time we found a child size cage, and written plans to kidnap an unknown child as well as collage of women from porn. Its one thing to encounter these kind of individuals online, but if you had to see what I had to see, you're skin will be crawling everyday. Its actually so bad, that I can almost tell whether the tim was a man or if it was tif that was a woman, simply on the amount of gore I have to clean up. If you were to take everything in the room and leave a trans flag up, I can reliably tell you if it was a man or a woman that killed themselves, based on blood splatter alone. Tims always end their life in violent bloody ways, whether its with a bang, or some drugged induced cutting, just like a typical male suicide, and Tifs like a typical female suicide will kill themselves in ways that save face. Women tend to kill themselves almost conscientiously, if a gun is used, its almost always the heart they go for. Ironically even in death they betray their own image subconsciously.

You know what? that bothers me, that legitimately bothers me. I don't feel empathy anymore for trans people, my empathy well has long since run dry in that regard. If it weren't for my dad, selfishly deciding to troon out, I wouldn't have to witness such shocking things, but at the same time, I am some how grateful for the ability to see it for what it is a delusion that only hurts women, families, and then eventually themselves. Its easy for other women to play along when their job isn't cleaning up the aftermath. Its easy to do that, because ignorance is bliss. Therefore its easy to mask the 41 percent suicide rate as not on regret of living as a total degenerate and making irrevsible changes to your body. No they say its because of inclusion. Its easy to say its not perversion when your not the one to quietly erase the shame of their existence, and be witness to the horrifying reality that some of them are real predators. Want to know an interesting tidbit? very rarely do family members or friends call my bosses service to clean up after a death of trans induced individual, its almost always the landlord. If it is they don't look particularly aggrieved and never ask for anything such as keepsakes. its like they feel shame for the trans person. I would too, if you seen the amount of porn, and sex toys, and women's lingerie we throw into the incinerator once were done. A normal death scene requires atleast 5 bags of that shit thrown into the fire after the job is done. Its like one thing to go along with it with out knowing the cold hard reality, but I see this kind of reality almost on a weekly basis, and I just can't stop going along out of social obligation. It sickens me to know other fellow women go along with it, even as far as offering their wombs to them, men masquing as women, and reading although violent comments on twitter. Men can never be women, its a fact, and trying to go against literal nature results in destruction, whether its the destruction of other women, of families, or of self. I want to scream this truth from the rooftops, I want to scream unabashedly, because I have seen the horror, smelt it, I have it ingrained into memory. It's been etched into my soul, but I can't atleast not openly..because if I do, then I am essentially putting a target on my back. I've kept this to myself for a very long time, but I can't anymore, this trans thing, is wrong, it hurts people, it keeps down women. I don't fear for my job as my job is necessary, you can literally have felonies and still be hired. While I dislike the stench of death and decay, it pays well enough for me to not live hand to mouth, and because people eventually die at some point I am guaranteed to have a job regardless of the economy. If anything the 41 percent suicide rate, keeps business flowing extremely well. Thats a problem, the problem is its one of the industries that benefits from mental illness delusion and perversion, from the moment you sign up to get hrt at a doctors office to the end where some one is called to deal with your corpse, and some one else is called to clean up after the mess you made. I don't see how it can be solved, anything in the death industry has an unnatural symbiotic relationship with mental illness. its not just suicides I clean up, but homicides, undiscovered deaths, even the occasional methlab. but if anything the fact is my job profits of one of the final steps of delusion. Societies can never solved with out first acknowledging the problem, and thats what tras refuse to do, is acknowledge the true cause of why tims and tifs end up offing themselves. Its not because people don't accept them, or that they're being discriminated against. The fact I have to come here under anon name to share my experience out of fear of getting hate and harassment flung at me, attests that. Society in general whether its the usa or some other western societies has essentially acquiesced and given in to every demand that tras demand. The only countries that haven't are those already steeped in its own human rights issues. If the mere act of questioning validity is warrant enough to get a hatemob, then these issues of crying about inclusion and suicide is moot; If tims still off themselves despite literally enforcing compliance, then it has to be delusion, perversions. I normally don't get all soap boxey, but I just can't pretend anymore, I can't keep going along with it, I see this every week, I see the death, and decay, and peversion, and I just can't anymore. So thats why I made this post, I can't keep this to myself anymore, I know not alot of women work in crime scene clean up business, but I am sure even if a normal woman worked my job for a year they'd feel the same way. And not let men and dresses walk all over them. thanks for reading you can ask questions, and comment.