SteppenSlut

I'm so used to being alone and being the mother friend that I often forget about my own needs and wants until the depression hits and I'm sitting there like " oh....that's right....." and get all upset.

I can’t even tell you how much I relate to this. And I only just realized it was happening again like a week ago. I was giving and giving and driving and helping and answering calls and advising people, family and friends when they needed me and taking care of everyone BUT myself. Until I was so tired, drained, and just heavy, I couldn’t even do that anymore. Let alone take care of myself. I laid in bed and that was pretty much it. I kept thinking “how the fuck did I let it get this bad.. AGAIN?”

Honestly, I still feel like crap. But I’m doing things now. I had a really productive day today so that counts. Still wasn’t perfect but it was something.

I guess I’m just trying to let you know and maybe even selfishly on my part (because inside I’m like whoa! Someone like me!) that I see you. The strong bitch who sometimes forgets to take a moment for themselves and seems so solid and fine to others that they might not think to ask how we’re doing, too.

The past few days I’ve basically had to set pride aside and come to the idea that it isn’t shameful to let the people in your life (family and friends) know you’re feeling low. They care, they don’t want you to feel sad.

Maybe consider putting dating on the back burner for now. Sounds like you may be in need of some self care and self love first and foremost, and friends to make you see it through. Coming from a work in progress in the flesh, and I need to take my own advice so I might just slap on a face mask and drink a beer in your honor. Do not hesitate to message me if you’re feeling down. I’ll be your damn friend. Cheers!