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[–]Shesstealthy 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

You're absolutely not at fault. Consensual situations where someone suddenly breaks a stated boundary are really hard to just stop. I've been there - not your situation but a kind of stealthing which I did immediately make him stop - and it's just messy. I too followed up with some sexual activity to take my power back.

You're not alone.

ETA oh and I should make it clear that when that happened to me I was a LOT older and more experienced and confident than you are right now. Which helped when I was able to tell him to get off me right now, but didn't make the feeling of violation any less.

[–]DevianttKitten[S] 4 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 0 fun5 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Thank you. Knowing other people have followed up with sexual activity makes me feel a little better. "Taking my power back" is exactly what I was trying to do; a BJ was something I could control. It was either that or post "sex" conversation and I didn't want to face that after what he'd just done.