Rant/long wall of text about IQ, autism, and why my IQ has dropped.

submitted by gloomy_bear from self.whatever

I just found this out today, but I thought that b/c my twin sister and I met the criteria for kanner's/classic autism/autistic disorder. Turns out, we were both diagnosed with PDD-NOS. I think it's b/c of the form preschools usually had att if your children had developmental delays; they were that form to see if your child has PDD-NOS. Anyways, yeah I was diagnosed w level 1 autism, but I do meet the criteria for level 2 in the social communication area. I don't understand language well, am idiosyncratic in speech, have marked odd nonverbal communication, I'll walk away mid conversation or even not respond (have done this since I remember doing this), even if you teach me social skills and have the supports in place, people can tell something is up with my social communication. It does suck a lot. Now I'm level 1 b/c someday when I'm ready, I'll be able to live on my own independently, don't need help with ADL's, even stuff with restricted and repetitive behaviors fits me in level 1. Although I'm currently vaccine skeptic, the vaccines weren't the cause of my and my twin sister's autism; we were born very early, and had developmental delays from the start of our lives.

I'm just upset that when I found out the report, that (and I know they're not end all to intelligence) I had average IQ. Why am I upset? B/c now, my IQ actually has fucking dropped (and I mean quite a bit) and I can actually pinpoint several culprits. It used to be average, around a high confidence level of 96-100. Now, it's fucking low average, around 88-92. I mean, I was always a bit slow in school (quite a few subjects, especially English and reading, but I was exceptional in geography and mathematics as well as music), but I honestly think the latter is my true learning speed and intelligence. I do think some of it was due to pharma poison (that crap they called medication and the jab, as in order for me to attend vocational school and uni, I had to take it), as much as I like THC, I've used some of it in the past, flouride in the water, and my former porn addiction when I was 14-15 (quit from 16-almost 21) and when I was 21 (quit that disgusting degrading filth for 2 years now!) I just despise that I became a drooling brainlet (not literally drooling but still) b/c of that bs. I have to work a lot harder now days b/c of that. But at the same time, it is what it is, and I just have to deal with the hurdles that I have to overcome.

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[–][deleted] 4 insightful - 3 fun4 insightful - 2 fun5 insightful - 3 fun -  (0 children)

It's okay mate, I'm a fucking retard and I'm doing alright.

[–]Canbot 3 insightful - 2 fun3 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 2 fun -  (3 children)

If it makes you feel better, you are not alone. There are a lot of people who have had their brains fried by vaccines. Reddit is filled with them.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

Yeah and yet they still think they're safe and effective 🤡

[–]LarrySwinger2 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

They're effective at what they were intended for.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Yeah we all know what it's doing too.

[–]NastyWetSmear 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

It's not chemicals in the water, what you smoke, what vaccines you took or how often you jacked your bits to naked people. Those are you projecting an issue outwards, looking for something to blame. Something to point your finger at, shake it and say: "This is all your fault!" Plenty of perfectly, healthy, intelligent, sane people do some or all of the above. Any one of those things can be bad if it just consumes you're life, be it by doing it all the time or by spending all your waking hours worrying about it, but none of them are anything to worry about on their own.

Nobody knows what causes any one individual to be below average. For some people it's nature - born dumb, act dumb, die dumb. For some people it's nurture - born fine, raised by idiots on a diet of idiocy and end up an idiot. For some people it's peer pressure - born fine, raised fine, surrounded by drooling morons, no back bone, falls in with morons, becomes a moron. Autism obviously doesn't help.

So life is going to be harder, eh? Sucks. Wallow and complain for a bit, but then you can either shake it off and do your best, or you can roll over and die. I'm going to suggest shaking it off and being harder than the hits. Not much anyone here can do to make it easier or make you feel better except to say: Everyone finds out something about themselves that sucks and makes going forward shitty. Nobody around you is prefect. Even the beautiful, intelligent ones who seem to catch all the breaks and just seem to coast through life have something ahead or behind them that's going to make it hard.

It's no big deal. Water off a duck's back, mate. It won't kill you and, honestly, in a world like this?... 88-92 is enough. You won't need to be amazing at everything, just better than the slop you see around you.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I know. I just was frustrated about it att. I just have to work harder to get where I'm at in life, which means with enough effort, I'll be able to achieve my goals. I'll just have to power through it.

[–]NastyWetSmear 2 insightful - 3 fun2 insightful - 2 fun3 insightful - 3 fun -  (1 child)

Fuck'n'A'right! It's nothing you can't throw off!

Oh, and just for future reference... You don't have to tell people on the internet how old you were and what kinda porn you were watching, mate. Unless you're being kinky with someone in private, prolly best just not to mention what age you learned to jack off at full stop, let alone the content.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Yeah thanks for letting me know. And I would understand that.

[–]Musky 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

I'll walk away mid conversation or even not respond

Do you think you respond and you don't, cause I know someone like that. It's gotten better over the years but it still happens.

I have to work a lot harder now days b/c of that. But at the same time, it is what it is, and I just have to deal with the hurdles that I have to overcome

Motivation > IQ. Many of the wealthiest people I know aren't that smart. It's almost like they don't realize all the ways they could fail and just do something, while more intelligent people can be paralyzed with worries and neuroses.

Fwiw, you never seemed dumb to me.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Yeah its usually that or I'll hear you and am paying attention to you, but something in my brain malfunctioned or something. Also thanks, b/c I've had people lie to me saying how smart I was yet their actions proved otherwise. They would talk bad about me in front of my face like I wasn't even in the room 🤡

[–]PsychoTranyRedditMod 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (1 child)

I think I dropped.a few IQ points trying to read that unorganized rant... Yikes. Whatever you have, you sold us. But if it makes you feel better, you still seem much more intelligent than a reddit mod.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Well being more intelligent than your average reddit mod really isn't a high bar. They honestly seem like their IQ is less than 20.

[–]Saiditaccount1 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (12 children)

Stop eating sugar all the time. Stop porn. Stop masturbation. NO MORE EVER. Get excersize. Regulate screen time.

And then get back to me if you feel smarter, this is an experiment OP

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (11 children)

I haven't watched porn in over 2 years, so yeah. Though I need to work on the other ones.

[–]Saiditaccount1 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (10 children)

Porn also counts as looking at naked ladies and pulling your pickle.

Right now it is lent, a time to destroy old habits. Try these things and get back to me. If it doesn't work, well, I have another idea.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (9 children)

I don't look at anyone naked either.

[–]Saiditaccount1 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (8 children)

Well that's good, you are already ahead of everyone else. Are you on mental health meds? I'm convinced the ones I'm taking right now are raping my brain, so I wouldn't be surprised if yours did too.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (7 children)

Yeah I'm on some sadly. I really wish I could get off of them, but I honestly need to move out if I want to do that.

[–]Saiditaccount1 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I doubt you are stupid. I'm autistic too and in your situation, and I feel artificially stupified.

You can perform introspection, so you are probably the smart kind of autistic like me. Either really stupid or really smart.

Don't give up YET. There is so much we don't know.

Are you stupid? Did the meds make you incurably stupid or just temporarily? Are you stupid because you haven't been taking care of yourself? Are you stupid because you haven't used your brain for a while? Have you spent too much time on internet forums? That will do it. We don't know. Get the facts before you lose hope.

And if you lose hope, contact me. There may be several final things we can try, but I'd rather not before it is clear you are hopelessly fucked.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Yeah there could be a lot of things that could be doing it. I'm in the process of finding a job rn as well.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Also, I probably need to get referred to occupational therapy. I haven't lost hope at all yet BTW. I just probably need to figure out what caused my IQ to go from 96-104 (and this is calculated) to either 84-92 or 88-96.

[–]LarrySwinger2 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

You're 23, why the fuck is your family policing whether or not you take drugs? I see that they've gone full Brave New World on you. But anyway, what's so difficult about pretending you take them? And is your psychiatrist still taking you off of pills?

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I dunno why. A lot of my relatives spanning from immediate to further are pharma shills. My grandfather was a pharmacist. My older sister and a third cousin of mine are EMTs. Just like how many people buy into the porn lie, my family buys into the pharma lie. My aunt and moms second cousin are the same types that would sperg about the covid vaccines aka anyone who doesn't get it is anti vaxx etc. Yeah my psychiatrist has took me off one pill, I might convince her to help me slowly taper the SNRI poison. I need to count the beads and take 10% off every month.

[–]LarrySwinger2 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Sounds good. Best of luck.

[–]gloomy_bear[S] 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Thanks