Wow guys, I don't even know where to begin. I am honestly so grateful for all the support, advice, beautiful messages and awards you guys have gifted.

I wish I could personally thank each and everyone of you, and I did try my best to reply to every message.

You guys are honestly so amazing and I cried reading all the comments, my heart has never been so touched with the ammount of love and support I got on this post and I am so sorry if it took too long to post an update.

I was honestly in so much shock I didn't know how to cope with it.

So uh I never got back to my ex, I didn't know what to do, but eventually he must have given my phone number to my parents as they texted asking to meet up. I never replied and was planning on organising a zoom meeting but didn't need to as they also showed up at my door. Well my father did.

When I answered the door and saw him standing there, I ended up throwing up which he insisted on cleaning.

When he was done, we sat down and I just bursted in tears.

My emotions were all over the place and my father has worn the same cologne for a really long time, so when I smelt it, it just bought back all these memories.

He tried to hug me but I pushed him away and asked what he was doing here.

He went on to explain he and my mother are getting a divorce. He said he begged my mother to get in touch with me the minute I left, but she refused and said I was acting like a baby and if I wanted to leave them after doing something so horrible, then I could do things on my own from then on.

I askes him how long did it take them to notice I was gone.

He said they arrived back home after News Years Eve and were planning on inviting me over so we could talk, that's when they got in touch with my friend and she told them I left and she didn't know where I was.

I asked him why didn't he listen to my side of the story and why did they throw me away so easily.

He just started crying. He said he never meant for things to get so out of hand and he wishes more than anything he could take it all back.

I said when they found out Nicky was taking drugs and had dropped out of HS, they didn't throw her away, instead we all went on a holiday so she could focus on things besides drugs and during that trip, she got hooked on alcohol and each time they defended her over and over.

He said he had no idea my mother was going to kick me out, he thought it was going to be for a few days but then they decided last minute to spend Christmas out of state.

My mother apparently promised him I would be allowed back home after they got back.

I said she threw away all my stuff but he said everything was still there and she lied about that.

I asked him what has happened to Nicky and he said she is dead to him, he wants nothing to do with her but my mother has been crying to him, asking to forgive Nicky as she is not well and they had already lost one daughter, they cannot lose two.

He blocked my mother and Nicky and has been on my ex's case about finding me. My ex caved in when my dad said he blocked my mother and Nicky and told him where I lived.

I asked that he never show up again unless I give him permission and he agreed.

He asked what would happen now and I said I really don't know and that he hurt me really bad.

I then just went into detail about how much he hurt me and what it felt like seeing them so happy without me and how hard it is has been.

We were both crying by the end of it but I was really glad I got it all out, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

My dad then said he knew a few places around the area and would help get me a better apartment and he said he would help get a better job but I told him I wouldn't be leaving this job as my boss helped me out so much and I wanted to repay him at all costs.

I said I didn't want him to do anything for me, but I said I do want to reconcile but it has to be on my own terms and It is going to take a very very long time to trust him again, and I may never trust him again.

He said he would do anything to make up for what he did.

I asked him why Nicky did this and if she said anything about it. Well she said she thought my ex deserved better than me and she wanted to see him happy because he was making too many sacrifices in the relationship, she loved him like a brother and wanted to break the engagement off, so that night she asked her friend to come and escort me out of the club so she could get photos and to take me home so her plan could work, she said nothing sexual happened, I went to sleep on the sofa and that was it, he was up playing video games all night until I woke up, which he has prove of apparently.

My dad was planning on getting my stuff from my mothers house and bringing it to me but I told him I didn't want those things anymore.

I then went to ask about Nicky's husband and he said my mother has been hush hush with the entire situation but he had his number and wrote it down for me.

After my dad left, I decided to call Nicky's husband.

I was sweating the entire time and felt so sick, what if I could hear her in the background?

Well anyhow when he picked up, I just spit everything out, which I deeply regret because I should have eased into it for him, he sounded really confused and I explained the entire situation again. I even went into detail about her drug and alcohol problems.

I was honestly expecting him to curse me out and defend Nicky, instead he let out a long sigh and well turns out, he had a feeling she wasn't exactly innocent, turns out her and his sister have been having problems and she has been spouting non stop lies about his sister and has caused a huge rift between them, his sister didn't even attend their wedding.

I told him I was sorry but he should make things right with his sister because Nicky was the problem not her.

We spoke a little more and he hung up. I'm not entirly sure what he is going to do with that information, I hope he cuts his loses and leaves her because he sounded like a really nice person and even he has lost his own sister because of Nicky.

So I have decided to reconcile with my dad, My mother has always run the show their entire marriage, so the fact he is putting his foot down and divorcing her and going nc with Nicky shows he is serious about wanting to make amends.

I don't think I will ever reconcile with my mother, as she thinks Nicky is a victim also in all this and at this point I don't care to listen to her excuses. If she reaches out and we talk, I will update the post again.

For my ex, I haven't had the time to meet with him and talk, though my dad mentioned he wanted to come with my dad but he told him I would be too overwhelmed if both were there and seeing them separated will help make clear decisions.

He also mentioned my ex was arrested for assaulting Nicky's friend who lied about the entire situation, he was being charged but the charges were dropped a few days later.

I will update the post again, when I have have time to speak to my ex.

Thank you guys for your being so patient and so caring and just amazing.