Not a QT.

Historically there were 1 transman for 90-100 transwomen. Nowadays there slightly more tnrasmen than transwomen. Most transwomen nowadays are not even trying to transition or present themselves as females, just either abusing system or are fetishists. That is really hurting "actual" transsexual transgender people, who mostly want to just live as the opposite sex, quietly and without demanding anything from anyone.

Tavistock statistic showed that around third of all girls transitioned are lesbians, and around another third are just GNC or tomboy girls. It was always really hard to grow up like that, all the attention, changing body, pain of growing breasts, first menstruations which are still very stigmatized, everyone hating you being not "girly" enough, huge lesbophobia before and even greater lesbophobia now. And everyone is saying to tomboys or butch lesbians "are you a man?", all the time misgendering them with saying "he", all the sexism in media and shaming everywhere around, etc.

And as a kid and even as young teen, up to 22-25 years old, you do not realize what changes on your body and your future life will do all those surgeries, hormones and drugs, so it is really easy to fall down for "all sexism is against women, breasts growing only for women, menstruation is only hated from women, so I will not be a woman anymore, it will save me from all this distress put on me by society". Every decade those girls were going against society or with society - will it be punk girls, witches, pinkies, goths, emo, and now trans and enbies. And after transition everyone is praising them, they are no longer hated, no longer under attacks from others, no longer underprivileged, no longer "boring lesbian", now "he" is not misgendering anymore, and so on. It is always clearly seen that most such transmen are always having "he / they" pronouns - anything, just not the woman. Even Ellen/Elliot Page did the same, after few interviews on how hard it is to be a woman in Hollywood that is coming to "too old" age of 35, and that because she is lesbian, a lot of roles are not even proposed to her (this is so weird rule, that only X can play X, while straight people can play anything).

This situation only shows how miserably sexist and lesbophobic today's society is, how it is hateful towards gender nonconforming women.

I lived through all that, hating myself for being woman, for being lesbian, asking why everything is so unfair. When I was searching my first job as an engineer - my resume were instantly dismissed, until I started presenting with male name, and then same companies started checking them and even asking for meetings to show what I know. It was so unfair, I was so hating myself for being born as a woman at those moments. I even was presenting myself as a boy for some time, when lesbophobia was the strongest and I was beaten up for being lesbian and fired from job. I thought that if I will be "straight man" - then it will be easier to find woman to love, people will stop hating me and accept as just normal man. Not worked out.

And this all have nothing really to do with being a trans, as it is just an escape. It is not "I want to be NB" or "I want to be a man", it is all just "I don't want to be a woman, let me be anything, just escape womanhood".

I am pretty sure if I was a teen today, I'd be among the first jumping transman train. And that makes me even more sad about the situation.