I hate the NPC meme because it's dehumanizing language...

but I also have this feeling like I have had in dreams... like why do I think so differently from everyone around me? It's just weird and borderline unnerving at this point. But that's the point of the MKULTRA-style Project Mockingbird propaganda, is to induce this feeling, right?

I'm just very confused about a lot of what is happening, as I imagine everyone else is. So we all have that in common, at least. I think inducing feelings of confusion is also part of the propaganda though, as it disables people. Confused people won't unify to solve real problems.

I just have this feeling like I've been running a marathon to find the truth for decades now and I look behind me and it turns out everyone I thought I was running with me stopped running a long time ago and I never realized how far back everyone was until now.

They say hard times makes for strong men, and strong men create good times, and good times create weak men, and weak men create hard times. It's a cycle that never ends. I think we are in the "hard times" part, and the weak people are being forced to become strong through hardship, and boy is it not fun at all.

I don't know what to do other than sit back and wait, and just try to occupy my time with things that bring me joy instead of hitting my head against a wall over and over trying to talk to people who don't want to listen. But if everyone with uncomfortable truths did that, then there'd be no way for culture and community to move forward... so there has to be a balance. But lately I am out of energy to try and spread the truth because the absolute force of manufactured culture right now just makes it seem like an impossible task. It wouldn't work if people were more critically-minded, but most are too tired and too time-poor and and too emotional to really think about things clearly. Especially when the chips are down and they're scared, then they revert to old ways of behaving apparently, trusting the media they know is lying to them, and trusting the pharma companies they know are corrupt, just because they're so desperate for a solution to exist. A sense of desperation that was created by the media blowing covid way out of proportion. Problem -> reaction -> solution.

I don't get how people don't see this. Can you imagine a world where 90% of people know the above, and it's seen as common sense? Maybe someday. I have a dream.