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[–]midnight305[S] 8 insightful - 1 fun8 insightful - 0 fun9 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

The LGBT community was never my friend or ally. I ran to them when I was 16 and I was basically chewed up and spit out. Been telling people how toxic they was for years now ,but no one wanted to listen.

To late now huh?

I went in vi and come out a lesbian. At first it was bi hate and " you cant be both "

But then I was raped 3 times or so bu guys ,had endometriosis at the time , and was more or less in a Male relationship because of my families " have kids get married " shit .

Never liked guys sexually never will it's how I found out I was a lesbian.

Now the trans are pushing the same thing guys did back in the early 2000s

[–]VioletRemi 9 insightful - 1 fun9 insightful - 0 fun10 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

and was more or less in a Male relationship because of my families " have kids get married "

Reminded me my story. I was married on a man for 3 years, because "it is how it must be done in society", and I did not know that women can be with another women, our country is pretty homophobic and there were nowhere to see about lesbian stuff at all. However, I never felt good with a man, and even when married, it felt very wrong to me. Husband was a very nice person, and tried his best, but I just felt wrong. So we divorced in the end. And after divorce I was pretty sad and I was a student, I asked to move me to room with less people in it in dormitory, so from 5-women room I was moved to 2-women room instead, however, there was only one big bed for 2 people. And somehow one night we ended up having sex with my roommate, that whas when I realized that it is what I like and what I want. And then at one point, some guys find out that we, two women, are in relationship, and beated me up. They wanted to "introduce her dick and she will like it for sure, it will fix her", but I was lucky that Principal was walking nearby, and she said "she was married, maybe just lost or experimenting, leave her alone". And she was perfectly fine for them beating me for being lesbian (I did not know that word then, yet). That was when I realized, that no one will help me and no one will accept me. And if I go into police - they will be just like principal, and maybe even will help beating me. So I tried searching other people, found one gay man who was in similar situation, and we founded small LBG group and later joined one bigger, with people who suffered similar fate. Nowadays helping LGBT is a fashion, it is cool, so almost everyone in LGBT movements here are not LGBT themselves, and never suffered any discrimination. And when I am looking to the west - USA, UK, Canada, there everything is much worse and LGBT degraded into something anti-LGBT completely. And this anti-LGBT that is called LGBT is acting literally the same like those guys and principal were acting 12 years ago.

[–]midnight305[S] 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

I'm sorry that happened to you. It's so hard on us when we are beat or told or even trying to br forced to like something.

No one should ever have to go through that stuff ever. And I agree the community chewed itself up and spat itself back out again.and yeah I dont see sexuality as cool or hip like they do . I see it as just a part of who I am.