Bisexual Or Bust (aka someone who knows words have meanings and that there is a reason for that!)

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[–]LesbianInExile[S] 8 insightful - 1 fun8 insightful - 0 fun9 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I try to take people as I find them rather than judging them on their sexuality but lesbian feminism (which is full of bi women) has unfortunately made me doubt how much trust and respect there can be between lesbians and bi women. Of all the bisexual women in radical feminism who have started dating women, Jo Bartosch is the only one who I have ever come across who has taken this stand. They are all so well versed and passionate about why it is wrong from a man to identify as a woman but refuse to apply this to the word lesbian - and they respond to any attempts to discuss the issues with bad faith straw man arguments about "gold stars", trying to twist it to say it is about having had sex with a man rather than being attracted to men.

I know other bisexual radfems who identify as bisexual but only because they are in relationships with men and bi radfem friends who myself and other lesbians have spoken to about how problematic this is, still say that if they split up with their boyfriend they are going to "become a lesbian" so it really makes me doubt how much I can trust them and how little they really care about lesbians.

Tbh, from wide eyed enthusiasm for feminism and women when I got involved in gender critical feminism, radical feminism and, in particular, lesbian feminism has really made me doubt the decency and trust between lesbians and other women. I hope that lesbian feminism isn't representative of humanity or womanhood and that it's just that decent bisexuals give it a wide berth.

[–]yousaythosethingsFind and Replace "gatekeeping" with "having boundaries" 7 insightful - 1 fun7 insightful - 0 fun8 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

The other thing is this preoccupation with the concept of being a “gold star lesbian.” It has always felt like such a non-issue that is mainly used to demonize lesbians when I really don’t think most lesbians care. But people online (and only online from what I can tell) get so hot and upset about it and act like it’s shaming non-gold stars or is inherently a statement about other lesbians. I’m not a gold star and it’s never occurred to me that another lesbian referring to herself as such should somehow be offensive to me. It does sound like such a disingenuous concern to me.

[–]wafflegaffWoman. SuperBi. 5 insightful - 1 fun5 insightful - 0 fun6 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

(Warning, this might be a bit tangential, but the article resonated.) I read all of this and wonder when everyone will finally graduate from junior high. I mean, WTF; this is why I avoid these crowds. :-) Simple formula: Use the accurate words, stop fussing so much about who anybody else is sleeping with, and have more fun in life. Sheesh. All of this jockeying for position is entirely too concerned with the wrong types of positions.

To be more crass and more blunt, there is so damned much uptight-ness going on in these scenarios—which is the reason I keep avoiding my local LGBT community—that I wonder when the last time was that any of these people took a brisk walk or jerked off. I mean really. Lighten up. There is enough to worry about in this world, without everyone stuffing themselves into the ladies room and fighting over a place at the mirror. (Something I'm guessing fewer L/B women have done than straight women, but this sure looks the same.)

I agree with the author of the linked post. As long as I might become exasperated with yet another immature woman and toss a man into my bed (easier to find the good ones when you don't GAF what they think in the first place; they can't yank your emotional chain) to reduce my exasperation, then I have to use the word bisexual. But my preference is strongly for women. I am just glad I can have fun when there are none around I would want to deal with. :-) Which is the vast majority of the time. Yes, that sucks as much as it sounds like it does.

There are so many immature L / B women (though, I have to say, I have known many more relaxed, sane Bs, but we all inhabit a very open and accepting subculture) that I kind of don't even know what to say, except that there are just as many immature straight ones. And sometimes the latter hit on me. Which is usually very annoying. There is no mystery about why I end up with men in my bed now and then: A dearth of quality women. The women who want me are usually looking for someone to top them in everyday life, which is super annoying, and they usually aren't the ones I am physically attracted to, either. So it's kind of just a cosmic joke. "You wanted a woman? Here, a totally unsuitable one wants you." Cool.

Did I go off on a tangent, there? :-) I just got hit on by another confused straight woman the other day (I do not think she is straight, given what she said to me, but who knows when she'll get that memo). Whom I adore as a friend and also think is pretty cute. So I'm [very] annoyed right now. :-) I would love it if someone I was attracted to and could enjoy being around and didn't have to manage or help figure themselves out hit on me. Put it this way, I prefer women—and I have had some great men in my life. Because I did not care, was not looking for them, and became friends with them before anything else happened.

The best of them were bisexual themselves. More fun in bed, kinder, more open-minded, much less stuck in gender-role stereotypes, and all of them were attracted to strong women. Pity I am not more attracted to them in their absence or I might develop a predilection. But when no one is around, it isn't men I am thinking about.

But bisexual is still the accurate word. My body has other thoughts about this, which is to say men don't elicit the arousal responses in me that women do. I wish it were otherwise, because I'd like to be able to engage with them as fully as I can with a woman. I feel like they're getting cheated a little bit, though they never seem to feel this way. I know better.

So being bisexual isn't endless party time, not for me. It's an endless cycle between wanting what I can't find, and making the best of what I can find. I just don't have a built-in limit on that which disqualifies half the human race, and frankly, I'm grateful. Because the women I am attracted to are almost never available.

However, that's just me. Other women have different experiences of attraction. I am just not far enough along the spectrum toward lesbian that I would use the word. And even when I thought I was, I ran away from the local LGB(T) community because the immaturity and popularity-contesting was so rampant I couldn't take it. I found it baffling and incredibly unattractive.