I'm sorry you were in pain and pray you would receive relief from that.

Many Christians are immature and do not yet understand the spirit they are of, wanting to destroy their enemies rather than love their enemies. Jesus rebuked his own disciples for wanting to call down fire from heaven to consume their enemies.

There are many Jews that are also immature, and they do not even believe in the first coming of the Lord, whom they crucified.

And then there is the synagogue of Satan who like to blame their atrocities on the true believers, even calling themselves Jews or Christians, when they are clearly not. Do not get these three groups confused. God's adversary pretends to be religious, but under that sheep's clothing is a ravenous wolf.