It's been a wild year of homesteading, joblessness, odd jobs, and employment while watching totalitarianism develope like a Polaroid photograph.

This week in particular, things have come to a head- Hawaii burns while an American non-sexual lump screams Russians are inhuman. Also I received my first real paycheck from a new job I adore.

Weeks ago my bank mailed me a contactless "tap" card without my request, telling me it was optional and that if not activated could simply be discarded and I would retain my current perfectly functional card. This was not the case. When the new card arrived I thought "now why would they be promoting contactless? No doubt many people enjoy the use of ease and buy into the concept that they are "cleaner" for disgusting, infected humans to carry- especially, say during a "pandemic". But nobody stops to think how easily compromised they can be- remotely within yards. Stories of people in airports getting "skimmed", I had my own experience at work when I was ringing one customer up who had an Amex without even an RFID chip. As she swiped for her several hundred dollar purchase, the pos instead charged the contactless card the customer 8 feet behind her was carrying. At what distance can these be accessed?

Why are we surrounded by 5g towers yet signal quality/strength is worse than pre COVID? Contactless cards are toll meters for 15 minute cities- transit too many "zones" and your funds are diminished accordingly. But they will also probably be whittled away if you are within a certain distance of "too many people" (a mob or gang), COVID social distancing was predictive programming, it's only basis in one of the most diabolical forms of psychological torture, as blood-soaked McCain attested while captured by the VK.

Remember the horrors and stress of underwater levels on videogames? So goes the planet.

My bank specifically waited for me to get paid to DEACTIVATE my perfectly functional card with no recourse but to activate the new one that I had thrown away. After waiting hours for the bank to open and then spending more hours trying to find the number and extension to talk to a human being, I was told there was simply no way to deactivate the existing card that expires the end of '25 and that I would just have to comply. I explained the above said to the representative and they seemed genuinely sympathetic and concerned regarding the reality of the above said- people get it. When any clerk asks to scan your ID for any reason, tell them no, tell them why. They'll get it and you'll probably make a friend.

I've loved my credit union, they're the only ones who could resolve the seemingly impossible lifelong problem of every institution fucking up my likeness and state-person. Since late highschool I have had 32 amalgamations of my name, some clerical error generated in some system- middle- first- last, last-middle-first, mispelled-incomplete, even my still-born brothers name in place of my own. Some have social security numbers, some don't. Pay bills for me, bills exist for the others not payable by me yet somehow I and my credit score were still liable for. I was extra-personed and completely non-personed at the same time. And my credit union were the only ones who could resolve this. They got emotionally invested in the what-the-fuck of it all and spent months doing so.

But then last year they rebranded from a professional sounding name to "zing"- some corporate mickey dees plastic fuck you to the patrons. At the same time, they began remodeling my nearest location. It's been a year and a half with no insight as to when they reopen.

So I rifled through the trash, found the contactless card and activated it for the weekend before I have time on Monday to travel the miles away to another location and have my previous card reactivated. Is it too late for me? Does my one-time consent make me irredeemable and complicit, the "revelation of the method"? I was effectively amputated my access to civilization at large and acted accordingly, I knew the stakes, specifically told myself that if the card is a problem with 5g then I'll simply deactivate the towers themselves. This country has never been more divided but EVERYONE can agree those fucking eye sores do not belong and are not to be trusted, whatever they are.

So we frequently share experiences like these, try to resolve them via company man representatives, our fellow man and we tell them "it's not your fault but hear me out".

I've worked in furniture stores who products killed statistically more people than terrorism, I've worked a centuries worth of case files and legal records of whole counties on the hopes that the information I quantified, clarified and digitized could help behavioral psychologists build better models, only to see my subordinates begin suiciding when interrogated by the State after or client broke chain of custody and put toxic materials in our custody, I most recently worked a job in Aerotech that was supposed to be commercial airlines and venus exploration projects until after hire Ukraine hit and we began making weapons to turn poor kids into skeletons.

I didn't transition out of any of these jobs well. I quit and suffered for it because I AM the agency of my own actions. I work with dogs now. It's pretty great.

We need to shame people. We need to make the poor Starbucks barista cry, not holding her accountable for what's "above he pay grade" but because her handlers have abandoned her at best but at worst are using her as a fucking puppet meat shield while they laugh their way to the bank. And then we all together are going Charlie Bronson Jesus Christ against these money-changers and really turning some furniture over.

"The revelation of the method." We are Babel, at the helm- Nimrod. Our Id. All of us. I believe the Cabal are the most religious people imaginable in their hatred of God. We can be unaware of what we contribute to and still be complicit.

We have been toxified, amputated and atomized from community. We need to be stern if not cruel to those who comply, not in rejecting them from the tribe but in confronting their rejection for the tribe. It sucks not having a job. Suffer, struggle, languish but watch as community organically and magically fills the gaps.

It is not "kind" for me to tolerate the shedding vaccinated. I now ask them pointedly "aren't you ashamed for what you've done to your body forever? Aren't you even more disgusted with yourself as to why you did it?" If I'm going to suffer the shedders when they wouldn't suffer the unvaccinated I am damn well going to let them know what they fucking did. And I will suffer my love for them and proximity to them. Trying to be more Christ-like, they are the leper and the crown of thorns (spike protein).