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I got called weird but I think i am a bit weird, or I think weirdly about things, or perhaps just think too much. So I was weird from being gay and weird from being smart, and I am not sure if one was more than the other weirdness. Being weird actually sucks, so when people love it I think they are fake-weird. Lol

But realizing I was a lesbian definitely made the lack of crushes on boys make a lot more sense. My family said they had wondered because I had so many handsome guy friends and no interest in them at all, romantically.

I wish I could say it made my life better as a teen, but it sort of just made me experience a lot of pretty bad dysphoria feelings before we had language for it. I came out in a town with no lesbians that I knew, and at a time where we could still get our asses kicked for it. I was so attracted to women that I felt ashamed that I was also a woman, sort of wished I could smooth out all the “tells” for female on me. That took a long time to go away, I am lucky I wasn’t indoctrinated into the idea of transition. No one would have known what was happening for me gender wise, because i just looked female, and even femme, and I certainly didn’t tell anyone. Yikes

The best part of being a teen lez was getting a secret gf. My first relationship was around 1.5-two years, closested. she slept over a lot since no one knew we were fucking. Lol. That part was A+++.

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My mom said “I don’t care what you do, at least you won’t get pregnant.” The first time I had a girl stay over that wasn’t an actual friend.

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Looool. She was right at least

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Unfortunately she’s normally right lol