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[–]Ricky_Ticky 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Girl, you are a drug addict. Your lifestyle will highly likely cause irreparable damage to your health in the nearest future. Seek help. Figuring out sexuality can wait

[–]Pamela_Isley 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

The trauma is fucking me up more than the drug use. I don't leave my house except to get drugs, I've become so withdrawn and isolated and I have panic attacks and nightmares of being raped and humiliated at least once a week. I kept a job and I had my own place while using, until the rape, then I lost my emotional stability and couldnt keep up with work. My sexual identity was always a core aspect of who I was and questioning myself is a large piece of why I'm so traumatized. I know I need help, therapy and rehab, but those things arent free and Im unemployed living with my parents. Meth is dirt cheap and my savings wouldnt get me a week in rehab but will get me a couple months more of drugs. I dont have a lot of options and honestly I just wanted a little compassion. I'm really going through it and I have no one and nowhere to turn.