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[–]TalerTest 7 insightful - 3 fun7 insightful - 2 fun8 insightful - 3 fun -  (1 child)

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[–]Pamela_Isley 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Elaborate?

[–]Gearbeta 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

I think you need more help than what's available here tbh.

[–]Pamela_Isley 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

I can't get therapy, I'm on Medicaid and the therapists who take it in my area arent taking more clients. I called a rehab center and they said they dont take Medicaid specifically for meth. My luck is phenomenal.

[–]Ricky_Ticky 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Girl, you are a drug addict. Your lifestyle will highly likely cause irreparable damage to your health in the nearest future. Seek help. Figuring out sexuality can wait

[–]Pamela_Isley 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

The trauma is fucking me up more than the drug use. I don't leave my house except to get drugs, I've become so withdrawn and isolated and I have panic attacks and nightmares of being raped and humiliated at least once a week. I kept a job and I had my own place while using, until the rape, then I lost my emotional stability and couldnt keep up with work. My sexual identity was always a core aspect of who I was and questioning myself is a large piece of why I'm so traumatized. I know I need help, therapy and rehab, but those things arent free and Im unemployed living with my parents. Meth is dirt cheap and my savings wouldnt get me a week in rehab but will get me a couple months more of drugs. I dont have a lot of options and honestly I just wanted a little compassion. I'm really going through it and I have no one and nowhere to turn.

[–]SailorMoon2020 6 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 0 fun7 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

Report. Ain't no body got time for childish post when the MODS clearly say in the side bar: #6. I also don't wanna start hearing from a bunch of bisexuals either. So I'm just gonna start blocking these types of post.

[–]Innisfree 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

Hear hear. Red flags galore!

[–]BonesReds 4 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 0 fun5 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

I can't say I've had any experiences quite like yours, so take what I say with a grain of salt. However, if you're only enjoying having sex with men while high, I'm not sure that really counts as bisexual. Meth can absolutely fuck with your brain, so things you do while high on it won't fully reflect the true you. Trauma from your past can further complicate your physical experiences.

If, while in a sober state, you're only attracted to women and would never consider having sex with men, I don't see how you aren't a lesbian. When you say you're addicted to poison and didn't do anything to deserve this, it really makes me think that you know who the true "you" is. Not the you that's using meth.

Whatever you find about yourself, I hope you find peace. You seem like a very resilient person, and I'm impressed with your ability to step back and question things. That's a skill that not many have. Good luck.

[–]Pamela_Isley 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Thank you. I think I just wanted a little compassion more than anything and you gave that to me. When I'm sober I'm only attracted to women, and very feminine women at that. That hasn't changed. I appreciate your comment a lot.