That reminds me of me when I was younger, so yea I'm not getting sexual attraction to men from what you're saying. But you can also just try to exclusively pursue women and see how that feels.

And hahaha Chris Hemsworth. True story, a few months ago I came upon a picture of Chris Hemsworth holding a koala who had been rescued from a forest fire in Australia and I thought for a quick second, "He looks attractive here. . . wait do I like men now?" lol. He didn't exactly captivate my mind or make me feel aroused. I closed my browser and looked no further into him and thought no further about him and this is probably the first time I've thought about him since then. I think that even though I often have "fruit blindness," I can recognize that Chris Hemsworth is an especially attractive guy and I might even think that if I saw him in real life, but I would also have no desire to engage physically with him or even to think more about it or look further into it. I wouldn't go into fantasizing mode and certainly not fantasy mode where I imagine getting any sexual pleasure from him.

It's no mystery to me why women were/are super into men like Brad Pitt, Pierce Brosnan, and David Beckham. But I also have no desire to think further about them other than acknowledging the simple fact that for men, they are good looking. Being gay doesn't mean you don't have eyes. That being said, most men that the media tries to convince me are heartthrobs are both not appealing and not interesting. I was never into teenage heartthrob stuff when I was younger. I liked some boy bands in elementary school (mostly Backstreet Boys and to a lesser extent N'SYNC) but I didn't find myself attracted to the guys in them. I just liked the music lol.

In contrast, with attractive female celebrities/women IRL I'll want to know everything about them, look at a bunch of photos of them, see what they look like glammed up, what they look like when they're casual. I pretty much study and really take in how they look and how they spend their time. There are a million things I can say about what makes them attractive. I become captivated and fascinated by them and fantasize about them in sexual scenarios where we both give each other pleasure. It definitely hits verrrry differently.