I probably sound like a broken record but literally every time you make a post like this I am just sitting here relating so hard. Especially this:

I know I lie when I use their pronouns. "You're lying" says a voice in the back of my head, each and everytime. It's easier to pretend behind a screen when you don't even know what the person looks like. But when you see them... and you absolutely don't believe in what they believe, it's just really hard to not just snap and walk away.

And this:

It's impossible to speak against TQ+ to a lot of LGB youngsters or they'll snap.

Exactly this. I am dealing with this with some people IRL... I've been trying to broaden my horizons a little bit and connect with more people who are LGB-identified, and it's so, so disheartening to me to see how incredibly brainwashed so many of them are. I made a post about it recently-- the guy in that post is I think straight, but I've had similarly ridiculous conversations with other LGB-identified people.

I just had to write what I was thinking today, to get it out of my head and to not snap or even try to bring sense to those people. I'm just done, once again, and very tired while they seem so chill with their TQ+ stuffs. Like it's the right thing, and it's normal. It feels very weird to see all that in front of your eyes, in real life, really.

I'm glad you did. And yes, it is weird! I feel more sane knowing that I'm not the only one out there dealing with this incredibly frustrating situation (though I'm sorry you are dealing with it, too)!

I will say. You said you're struggling dealing with your anger. I am, too. The mentality I've been moving towards more recently, though, is that it IS completely reasonable for us to be angry!!! Like, really, this stuff is crazy! It's a massive gaslighting operation, it's enough to make anyone go mad (angry or crazy, honestly). My solution has been to try to observe: "Who in my life is giving me energy? Who's actively making me feel drained, angry, and disappointed with the world?" Unfortunately... I realized that one of the people in my life who is (or at least identifies as) LGB, is absolutely making me feel drained-- because I just have to fucking tiptoe around her constantly. I know that she would have this very reaction that you describe:

It's impossible to speak against TQ+ to a lot of LGB youngsters or they'll snap

and honestly I'm just fucking done being around people who make me feel like that, whether because they're a homophobic TRA or because they're a garden variety asshole. This abhorrent belief system, gender identity ideology, is destroying LGB community building efforts in so many macro-level and micro-level ways. I've accepted that this is just going to be one more casualty. Maybe I could've been better friends with her in a different world, or a different time. Not in 2022.

Anyway, again, I appreciate you posting about this and sharing your experience.