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[–]oofreesouloo⚡super lesbian⚡ 16 insightful - 1 fun16 insightful - 0 fun17 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

I can relate to you on many levels. The only thing is that I'm lesbian, not bi. For me, it was at 13/14 (in the transition), whne puberty hit for me. I was in vacations and OUT OF NOWHERE I started thinking "is it possible that I'm a girl and date other girls?", started searching on the net, and watched my first lesbian web serie "Anyone But Me" (it's still one of my favorites till these days!). It started out as a "curiosity", but I started getting TOO curious and I found women so sexy, so much sexier than men... And it would be so cool to have a gf... I've realised also at the same time, what I felt for my best friend wasn't friendship but love (she was also coincidently at vacations in the same place as me and we met). At first, I was excited because I've never been a homophobic person and never had any problem with "different people". But then, after coming out to my mom and not going well, to my friends and not going well, bad rumors about me, etc etc I started to feel lots of shame. And just like you, I had NO one at the time. I felt totally alone and an alien lmao. But now I'm here and things have gotten much better and I now love myself 😊

[–]indeepshadowsBi woman[S] 4 insightful - 2 fun4 insightful - 1 fun5 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

I'm so sorry that everyone reacted negatively to you coming out; that must have been so rough. :( I'm bisexual, but I can relate to how you thought women were hotter than men; as a teen I was so worked up about my bisexuality (and trying to bury it) that I was outright obsessed with women and girls. Maybe because I tried so hard not to be that it was inevitable that I couldn't get them out of my mind. :'D Also, hear you about being "too curious"! Glad you're loving yourself now. :)