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[–]jelliknight 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

I'm ultimately interested in everything and anything, or at least most things.

That's awesome. Me too, I get really deep into things. Btw if you have trouble with some maths, Khan Academy has good resources.

I want to understand where they come from. I still can't help but think they might have a foundation of truth.

This is great! You sound like a budding philosopher! My personal motto is "everyone has something to teach you, even if it's just a scone recipe." Some of the best information or perspectives comes from the most unexpected sources. E.g. on coding, I feel like learning weaving has taught me more about computer coding than anything else (I could never get into coding either, it just seems so abstract, but in weaving the strings take binary position, up or down, and they're grouped in multiples of 4, 8, 16 or 32. changing the sequence changes the pattern that shows up, and you can control the strings with punch cards. Looms were the first computers).

My personal rule on rule-breaking (taught to me by my father) is that you can break any rule as long as you know for sure exactly why the rule is there.

I don't think you're as easily influenced as you think you are. You're adaptable, willing to learn, willing to listen, willing to experiment and try things. If anything that makes you resilient to influence. When you listen to all different opinions, it's going to be hard for anyone to force you or trick you into any particular one. For example, since you've been here no one will be able to convince you that "TERFs are evil and want trans people to die" whereas a lot of people your age wouldn't even come here, so they can be easily convinced of something that isn't true.

If I am wondering if I should report someone who mistreated me, I will need to vent and ask for advice, because I don't want to do the wrong thing and I need guidance and support and to know if I thought right.

this is totally normal. We often call our most trusted people in similar situations for guidance. I'm 31 and I ask my friends for guidance on situations all the time and they ask me. Because we can make mistakes and misinterpret things and it's good to get an outside perspective. It doesn't make you weak or easily influenced. Again, it makes you less likely to be influenced because if you're in doubt you'll check.

I am exactly the same with decisions. I put a lot of effort into checking things out, checking and weighing every options. On the one hand it means that i never regret my choices because i know for sure that they were the right ones, but it's also exhausting. I'm getting better at letting go of things that don't matter as much but it's ok for you to want to consider everything before choosing.

Honestly, at 31 I'm staring to wonder if I have some degree of Autism too. I vibe with pretty much everything you've said, and I've noticed a few other things that people now tell me aren't actually normal. But I don't think it matters. If I do have it I'm high-functioning enough that it's barely noticeable. It doesn't matter if you are autistic or not, you are in control of your mind and your thoughts.

You seem like a really cool person. Genuinely, I think I'd really like to hang out with you. I don't think you need to be afraid of yourself. Follow your mind and your heart and your courage wherever it leads you. You're going to do great things!

[–]iloveyou[S] 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Thanks about Khan Academy! I didn't know it! It's free, right? I've created an account and I can't wait to try it. Thank you so much.

This is great! You sound like a budding philosopher!

Oh boy, thanks, I'm so flattered haha By the way, do you do weaving then?

My personal rule on rule-breaking (taught to me by my father) is that you can break any rule as long as you know for sure exactly why the rule is there.

Step 2 is finding out why to break the rule and how. But I'm super agreeing with your father. I think that makes a lot of sense.

I don't think you're as easily influenced as you think you are. You're adaptable, willing to learn, willing to listen, willing to experiment and try things. If anything that makes you resilient to influence. When you listen to all different opinions, it's going to be hard for anyone to force you or trick you into any particular one.

I guess you're right. But I am very anxious so I can get really afraid. I believe that I'm weak. It's true that thoughts aren't actions though. When I think things, they feel real. When I consider them and imagine them, it feels real. Thoughts turn into feelings more than into actions. I am weak in that I victimize myself but I am smart and I know exactly what I'm doing. Just want to keep doing it... I don't know why. I can realize that I'm self-sabotaging and still do it. But you're right that I am not so influentiable. Well, I mean, sort of. I'm not when I don't love the people who are influencing me. But I want to belong so I want to be more like some people. If my friends do more dirty jokes, I want to be in as well. I will make more dirty jokes (even if much less than them; but I'll still be prone to feel bad if they make one that crosses my boundaries... which is stupid I know. But I won't want to stop hanging out with them. and then I don't belong again...)

Honestly, at 31 I'm staring to wonder if I have some degree of Autism too. I vibe with pretty much everything you've said, and I've noticed a few other things that people now tell me aren't actually normal.

You know, I got that vibe when in a previous reply you talked about having short hair and it being uncomfortable for you. I don't hear a lot of people say their hair is uncomfortable. I'm the only one that I know in real life. Not that I'm asking others and boasting about it. But for instance some people put their masks on their necks sometimes even if for a moment. And I've tried doing that (in streets with no one of course) and it itches me a lot, it's uncomfortable, it tickles. The people I see complaining about hair in the internet... are in autistic forums, for the most part. Although there's other conditions that cause lots of sensivity.

It's good to talk to you. I'm really glad to know you feel that way about me.

I have a mind and a heart who are overthinkers :) I'm learning slowly about who I want to be. I don't want to be old and regret my choices, but then again who wants to be old and regret the lack of choices.