I get how you feel. I'm from Brazil, so latina, mixed black/white, though my experiences had nothing to do with being latina but with being mixed. While my country has a lot of people like me, racism is still pretty much alive and well. Black features are undesirable, and many people avoid calling themselves black, while white is considered exotic, the fairer your skin, the prettier. I'm not white passing myself, I guess you could say my sister is, her skin is pasty white, while I look like the mix of both my parents. I felt like I was never enough, not white enough, not black enough. I had the privilege of going to private schools my entire life, and there were a lot of white kids there, my feelings of not being enough got stronger and I started too avoiding the sun to not get a tan, in hopes I could fit in. Both my sis and I straightened our hair for years too.

One of the things that annoyed me to no end about the TRAs and their handmaids was the acceptable targetting of white women and double standards. I was accused of being white many times on the internet just for disagreeing with TRAs. At first I thought that was funny, especially since race had nothing to do with the discussion and also because the people accusing me were more than often white themselves. Then I realized that was just the new "you don't get to have an opinion". A thing men told me my whole life. How my skin has anything to do with opinions? Why is what I say less important if I'm perceived as white, when the discussion has absolutely nothing to do with skin color?

C'mon, if TWAW then they would be white women, then, by their logic, they should just shut up? Interesting enough, it never happens, they keep spewing crap. How come?