Welcome, sister :)

It sounds like you've been having a tough time, and as others have already said, please make sure you're taking care of yourself! Stay safe first and foremost. Your physical and mental health are number one.

I've never been trans, so I dont know what you've been through or what things you may have going on, or what may concern you about detransitioning. However, I do have experience being a woman with a beard and excess body hair and excess testosterone (thanks, PCOS). Beyond high school the only effect it has had on me has been extra time shaving and feeling self-conscious. Again, idk what your specific situation is, but plenty of women have dealt with the effects of excess testosterone for a variety of reasons, and none of us are even a little bit less of a woman for it. (Frankly, back in the day 100+ years ago I could have charged people an entrance fee to see my lady beard, and I'm a bit disappointed that my boss isnt cool with me growing my beard out and charging anyone who sees me $1.)

On a more serious note, there is definitely anger in the GC community, for a variety of reasons. Please keep in mind that we (in general, there will be bad apples in any group unfortunately) are NOT angry with trans people as individual people unless there's a reason to dislike that person in particular. However, you've got a lot going on as it is. Dont feel like you need to jump in too far too fast, or that you have to keep reading if you find you're getting too upset because of the angry tone of a commenter or for any reason really. Being in a good headspace is important for critical thinking and keeping an open mind for new ideas, and there's no shame in taking breaks and focusing on yourself!

Take your time, take care of yourself, and do what you think is best for your health and happiness. Best of luck to you!!