Does the woman who gave birth to you believe you were just a facade before you transitioned? Did she gestate a phantasm and risk her life in childbirth for a mere illusion?

She seems to consider him essentially dead. She has refused to see me or hear my voice in seven years, since I informed her I would be transitioning.

What age did you "transition" anyways?

Hormones at I believe 27. I first tried dining out at 14 but experiences such a backlash that I went back into suppression and determined I would just tough it out.

That lead to long term issues and eventually it came to kill myself or transition because I couldn’t stand to live a lie anymore. I regret daily not fighting for it when I first tried. The price for my cowardice is the body of a monster. Though that’s more than you asked for.

Do all the adults who nurtured, rocked, fed, wiped your nose and butt, raised, comforted, soothed and taught you to the point in time you "transitioned" think that prior to that you were just a charade or a corpse?

Apparently. My father hasn’t had any contact in 7 years and my mother only communicates via text and obviously without any love. The Aunt that watched me every day as a young child passed before she could know the real me sadly, but I like to think she would have been been accepting.

Do all your peers who as kids your age played with you, and all the older kids who helped care for you and showed you the ropes, also think you were dead or not real back then?

Again by and large yes. I am still in contact with perhaps 3 people from high school even irregularly. And 2 of them have become substantially more distant than before I transitioned.