You're welcome, Musky. You're a good, decent guy and you deserve better than to invest 100% of your limited emotional energy into a relationship that isn't going anywhere, and is causing you stress and disappointment. I hope you find the resolution you're looking for, and can take care of yourself, mental health wise and otherwise. The smartest moves I've ever made over the course of my life have been to emotionally or physically walk away from dynamics that were just a source of pain, confusion, unrequited something, or loneliness. A relationship that leaves you feeling lonely or in doubt isn't healthy.

You have hobbies, talents, interests, and a cool fire pit in your backyard (hand picture). Focus on the stuff that's real, helpful, and restorative. thumbs up