GrantingGrace

It's kind of incredible to see that written out. I mean, I don't know anyone else who has the same thing I have and everything you have written I have. I haven't been diagnosed with it, I was told I needed psychiatric help when I went to the doctor with the list of issues I had, dated carefully with onset as well as times it seems to be worse. It took me a long time to document that, because of the memory issues. When I first came down with it, I was in bed for two weeks and a few times I woke up with my heart almost no longer beating at all, it was a very bizarre sensation. My husband thought I was going to die. Bad stuff. My life has not been the same since; although I find some amount of relief by using dl phenylalinine, VitD, ashwaghanda, NAC, and when my cycle comes I have to take a lot of bovine supplements to counter the loss of red blood cells, severe anemia, serious oxygen reduction. It's been difficult with my husband not fully understanding but I think after three years of watching me go through feeling a little better and doing things to crashing he gets it's not an act. What a misery. I abuse this work out supplement called Mr Hyde in order to push through the pain and get something done on a regular basis. The caffeine and whatever else is in it does wonders for pain. Far better than any over the counter painkiller. On really bad days, edibles save me, but I do not enjoy the sensation so I avoid it unless its extreme. Magnesium and methylated B complex help a lot too; but the problem is my memory is so bad that I can't remember to take the right things on a regular basis to help maintain a stable mental state or manage physical pain. You'd think to just write it down, but I forget to do that too.

I'm currently doing a juice fast to help combat this, annual fasting usually helps but this year I decided I needed the nutrients too much to do a full on water fast. I don't have a time set for this, I guess when I get too thin I will stop. I always feel so much better fasting from solids; I guess it's because the body can take out the toxic waste from the bacteria.

How do you know you've killed the bartonella, EBV, protomyxzoa rheumatica?

When you first rifed twice a week, what were your reactions? How bad were you at that time in your condition? I'm at a moderate instead of extreme level of pain in mornings and it reduces to maybe a 3-6 during the day. I'm beginning to have serious issues with my spine/pelvis (the same burning that stays in my feet and calves is now in my spine and pelvis) and I really haven't been able to reduce it with chiropractic care, stretching, rehabilitative exercises, nothing. I am suspecting the little devils are eating all my supportive tissue and I'm not making it back fast enough, Idk. I would really like to be able to walk like I'm not in my 90's. My body's frail condition is emotionally overwhelming when I give myself time to think about it, which I try not to. I used to be so strong that I accidentally broke my husband's ribs by play wrestling. Now I can barely pick anything up at all. And it seems to be getting worse.

Is there a way to get the machine for less of an expense? I really can't fork out a few grand. I also, as I'm sure you understand, am thinking snake oil, because I've tried many things. It's so expensive. :(

Really appreciate you writing. It is nice to see I'm not the only one who should be dx'ed as a "crazy person" for their pain. The people who created this and released it are evil beyond belief.

Hope you continue to do better!