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[–]newgrounds 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

For real, though, I do have done all of these. Not necessarily in that order, but they did emerge over time. I feel terrible looking back. I loved her with all my heart and I threw it away and in breaking her heart, she broke mine in return.

My narcissistic personality disorder or antisocial personality disorder or whatever it is quickly turns romantic lovers from objects of affection into paranoia based objects of subservience and manipulation. It's disgusting

Since I realized the shitty dark things that overlay my core and how they manifest, I have been working to try to short circuit them as they emerge in relationships, at least.

Still, it is definitely there in me and I will do my damnedest to lock the bad parts away. Some parts of it are useful, but certainly not in relationships or friendships. I still miss her every day.

Sorry T.L.C. Never again.

[–]fujiwara_armbar 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

have you been actually diagnosed? if you don't feel like answering sorry for bothering you and go ahead and ignore my comment.

if you aren't diagnosed but think you may have a cluster B personality disorder, would it possibly be learned behaviors from you parents?

from personal experience and interacting with 3/4 of the cluster Bs, sometimes children--who don't have it--pick it up from parents.

if this doesn't apply to you it might affect your family members so...heads up? i'm sure if that's the case you're already well aware

[–]thr 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

romantic lovers from objects of affection into paranoia based objects of subservience and manipulation. It's disgusting

Perhaps you should stop looking at people (women? I'm gonna guess women) as objects. Regardless of whether it's an object of affection (they way you write makes it seem like you think this is a positive way to view others) or an object of subservience (you know this is negative), women aren't objects for you to use, accessories to your life.