In another post from OP:

why? why couldn't I have just been born female? raised female, seen as female. gone to school as female, crushed on guys as a teenage girl, get asked to a dance, hell even the bad things i don't get to experience like awkwardly getting your first period. why can't I just have a body that I don't hate? why can't I have triple Ds and female body parts instead of this stupid masculine body that makes me wish i was dead whenever im alive(so 24/7) i just want to be a female, i want to give birth to beautiful children but i won't ever be able to. i want to sound like a female, not a dude, not a trans girl, not a low voice girl, a female. i hate my life and i wish i wasn't alive

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