I must have negative gaydar because good God I keep falling for straight women! Over the course of six months, I finally was able to have more conversations with my crush. Anything I could do to talk or be around her without being creepy or neglecting my work, I did. I really thought she liked me, but it was not to be. She told me the other day she has a boyfriend,and now I'm replaying every interaction we've had, every look, smile, or talk. Absolutely convinced I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life.