That sucks so so so bad! An ex of mine had endometriosis as well and I know how much pain it caused her. I have Ehlers-danlos syndrome, which in itself doesn't have to be a disability, but since it has caused my left shoulder to be permanently partly dislocated, and my right shoulder, jaw and fingers partly dislocate on a regular basis I consider it a disability: it limits me in what I am capable of doing. Chances are that with the rate things are going I might end up in a wheelchair if my hips or knees start acting up. But I do a lot of physical therapy to make sure I hopefully prevent any future damage to my body. I have joint pain every single second of the day, along with the pain of dislocating joints, and that will never stop.

I wish I had a magic pill as well lol, tramadol helps a lot but i can still feel the pain through it. I have never taken real anti depressants, for the same reason as you: I feared they'd numb me. I've been depressed since I was 13 years old, and these painkillers got rid of that without numbing me. They have a lot less side effects compared to regular anti depressants. I got lucky, I guess.

And you're right I should probably stand up to myself, I feel as if it just isn't worth it. I call them friends, but realistically I don't feel close to them.

Not drinking is really good! I only drink one glass at a time maybe once every other week. I don't do drugs at all, but so many people are into smoking weed or getting drunk a lot.. I am just not.

And same, i got hugged for the first time in years all the way back in december and i still cling onto those memories..

I have two ball pythons! One is a total sweetie, he is my best boi. They are my favourite animals and i could potentially have 300 of them for real. I also own a lesser tenrec, which looks like a miniature ugly version of a hedgehog lol.

Do you have snakes or other pets?

(Also! Don't feel insecure about your body weight, there are tons of ladies who like their girls on the bigger side - I am one of them, more to hug ;)! )