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[–]writerlylesbian 7 insightful - 1 fun7 insightful - 0 fun8 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

As a teenager. This was the 90s, so I was super into shows like Xena, Star Trek Voyager etc. and had a lot of crushes on the female characters that I didn't exactly recognise/admit to being crushes at the time. When Xena starting going all-in on the lesbian subtext between Xena and Gabrielle, I absolutely LOVED it, but had to pretend I didn't, lol, since I was in a fairly small homophobic town. I'd be all, oh yeah, that's so gross, how could they do that? And then be glued to the screen every Saturday with just this...Intense longing to have that kind of relationship with another woman.

About aged 16 I completely fell in love with one of my female friends and was just crazy sexually attracted to her. I'd never felt anything for guys (and if anything found them fairly off-putting physically) so it was pretty undeniable to me at that point what was happening. For whatever reason, I accepted it pretty easily (I think because I was never very invested on fitting in) and sort-of ended up getting together with this girl for a while, but it all ended tragically of course.

Got kind-of outed in school but didn't get much bullying because I stood up for myself a lot and that scared them off for the most part, didn't come out to my parents because my home situation wasn't great, finished school and got the hell out and then came out properly in the big, wide world. There was an actual functional LGB movement in those days, so that was nice.

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Did you have a crush on Tasha Yar from TNG? Christ, what a babe. And Xenia, omg what a babe.

[–]writerlylesbian 2 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

Yes! Tasha Yar, ah, the memories. IKR? As cheesy and ridiculous as it was, Xena was such an amazing character/show for the time. It's just so funny thinking back on what a little hypocrite I was, nodding along and making disgusted noises about how they ruined a show with LESBIANS and then being secretly so into it, haha. I was only like 14/15 at the time so it's completely forgivable, but still makes me laugh when I think about it.