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Love and goodwill to you too, and I hope you were able to get some rest and feel a bit better today. It's always a struggle, but we've got to find these small moments to get back into ourselves and be true to who we are.

You are yourself, a real independent person, and YOU are more important than perpetuating and honoring the lies anyone else tells themselves. {{{hugs}}}

[–]wafflegaffWoman. SuperBi. 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. {{{HUGS}}} back. They escalated pretty severely throughout the rest of the week. Spent the day talking to friends to bolster myself. Suspect I will not be in contact with the two family members for much longer. Which would leave me with zero close family in the area. But I can't spend my life having my insides carved out by emotional butchers. That is not a life worth living.

So I'm grateful for friends / chosen family. Holy hell, what a ride mental health issues are.

I still don't regret sticking to my guns. And I wonder what it would be like to have nobody in my life that I have to pretend around like this. I've never had that psychological freedom.

But at the same time I am super angry because the enabler / co-narcissist / victim got their life fucked over too and they have no idea how badly the abuse damaged them. And they're not going to listen to me, the only person left who is a witness. It's, well...I don't know. Definitely one of the worst experiences of my life. I can't save that person. I don't know what to say about that. It's like watching a loved one be stuck in a cult and the cult's reality. You are the bad guy, you are invalid, invisible, if you try to get through to them. This is above my pay grade presently.

I'm grateful though to be so familiar with these tactics that I don't get gaslit or hooked or confused. I know what is going on. And that I'm not able to fix it. And that I didn't create it.