Hey, I'm sorry I'm so late to this post but I just wanted to say, I know you don't know me but I care about you and I'm rooting for you, dude. It's completely unfair in the extreme that you're in a position where you're really unlikely to find not only romantic relationships but just basic friendship. And I so, so, so feel you on gender critical or trans-movement-critical beliefs being a whole other "layer" of difficulty on top of being LGB and/or GNC. I have often thought about it that way, too, and more recently I've been noticing more and more how utterly isolating it feels hiding this part of me, these beliefs, from almost every single person in my life. It feels crushing. I've been debating telling more people just because I almost feel like I'm living something of a lie, not talking about the massive wave of homophobia that's sweeping countries and that has affected me personally even in small details of my life.

I just want to say, I'm really glad you feel comfortable letting off some steam here, and I hope you keep going. And I believe you can do it. You seem awesome and it'd be heartbreaking to see the world deprived of you. Best wishes from a GNC gay woman.