Spending a lot of time in online lgbt spaces eventually made me start hrt and I got to a point where I was considering social transition. For me it was the fact that I always hated male gender roles, also lots of insecurity because there is a lot of fetishisation of youth between gays and I believed that once I would reach early 20s noone would like me / be attracted to me anymore unless I started hormones.

I realised that gender roles are bullshit and that your birth sex doesnt have to say/decide anything about you. So I obviously never socially transitioned because the concept seems stupid to me, I was born male therefore am.

I'm still taking hormones and been for the last 4 years though so idk.