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[–]OPPRESSED_REPTILIANIntersex male | GNC | Don't call me "a gay", "twink" or "queen" 5 insightful - 2 fun5 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

I was about 11 too, though it's hard to pinpoint exactly. I developed an unhealthy, very sexual obsession with one of my male friends.

Later I realized I wasn't attracted to women and didn't really care about having a girlfriend. However, I had no interest in guys, either. Since a teenager I keep looking at pictures of guys (naked or otherwise) out of fear to check whether or not I'm gay but I never get turned on by it. I've never been sexually interested in any guy (or anyone period) since that first one a long time ago. So I guess it's more like a really obscure fetish, and a disordered sexuality most likely from having a ton of mental health issues.

To be clear I've never experienced the PG-13 cutesy gay crush. I probably never will.