Cocobellend

It’s not addictive in the way most drugs are, like the awful physical withdrawals, but it certainly can be additive to many people, myself included. I hated smoking it but I did it, I hated how I felt on it but I carried on, I hated the paranoia I personally got and I hated being broke but I couldn’t stop because I kept wanting it, I felt like I needed it. I also smoked with tobacco so I was definitely addictive to the nicotine which wasn’t helping the mental addiction to weed because I only smoked the tobacco with the weed. I’m almost a year clean now and don’t crave it and haven’t craved it since about a month or two into quitting it all. I got sick and couldn’t smoke so I decided there and I’d stop, it was tough and at first and after two weeks of nothing I allowed myself the weed as long as I left out the tobacco, my theory was one thing at a time, but I noticed I hated it, I didn’t enjoy it so didn’t do it for another few days, tried it again, had a pull and just decided nope, this isn’t for me anymore. I’m surprised how much better I am without it because I’d convinced myself I needed it. My partner still smokes but he quit the tobacco too, and I don’t even realise it’s in the house or when he’s had one unless he comes back in with a gust of wind and I smell it. This has become and essay but basically weed is addictive and if you’re telling yourself it 100% isn’t instead of accepting that for many it is, then you yourself might be addicted.