next month will be my final month. All i've wanted my entire life was two things: I wanted to be a published poet and I wanted a chick to let me check out her nails IRL. Like physically look at her nails and touch them. With r/handfetish banned,I can't even get hand pics for $5 anymore. I've gotta pay women on instagram $20 to $80 just to look at hands and masturbate to things i'll never touch.

Next month will be my final month. I get my handgun license on the 3rd, a shop 5min away from campus has revolvers and a case of .22 ammo for $250. I'm going to kill myself in my dorm and hope that next life, my reincarnation still has a handfetish and is a tall white dude so i can get any brown woman i want with the coolest nails.

I will post again on the day I kill myself. I love all you guys. The incel community really opened my eyes and made me feel not alone. All my friends were always blue eyed 6ft white dudes that had asian and latina and black chicks literally dying to hang out with them. Every time I told them brown women hated me for being brown, they'd just say "go to the gym, work on your personality".

You guys were the first to tell me I was being cucked. That there is no gym for your looks. I thank all of you guys and I pray you all ascend one day. But, I will not be ascending or living much longer.

Peace out, I'll make another post before I die.