I do not want sex or women. I want to focus on my hobbies. But my brain and body do not understand that and always trade in my ability in the latter for more in the former. Me just existing now pretty much gets girls chasing me so I'm very good at exactly what I don't care about. And it's cost me everything I actually do want.

My only focus on women is how much better life seems for them than us. They go through puberty and get breasts and periods and that's it, everything else continues as normal. For us everything we once knew changes, and not in a good way, as I already described. It's productive for the species but not good for us personally. On top of that women have hardly any social obligations, and there's something called the Women Are Wonderful Effect and Male Expendability which means humans of both sexes inherently care about female humans but couldn't care less about males. Because females are both the default state and serve a much wider range of natural roles than males, and because you need a lot more of them to reproduce as one male can impregnate thousands of females. This is also probably behind the unfortunate development of males compared to females. In nature's view we exist solely to continue the species and provide for females, and that's what I'm being given the tools for, and the ones I need for my hobbies and stuff I like are being traded in for them.

Probably because of autism I couldn't care less about society or the species but unfortunately my natural processes aren't aware of that. I feel like a ghost trapped in the body of a practically demonic species who can't think for themselves.