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[–][deleted] 9 insightful - 2 fun9 insightful - 1 fun10 insightful - 2 fun -  (18 children)

I felt (and still feel) that way too. He’s actually helped me with fucked up irl shit when I didn’t know who to turn to, & was going through some terrible stuff during the beginning of the “pandemic”. We’d talk in PM’s from time 2 time since I ventured out of IP2, he knew more about me irl than anyone on this site because of how friendly and approachable he was.

I lost almost everything in the beginning of 2020, and he gave me some serious life advice. It wasn’t just a few sentences, he actually spoke to me and helped me more than anyone irl did. Then one day he publicly claimed “he found certain old users sus and feels they’re part of the attack too” (something to the effect, but that was the message), and around that time he stopped responding to PM’s (and I didn’t hit him up often). I sent him a few PM’s regarding shit important to SaidIt, but he would never respond.

I honestly thought he just wasn’t fucking with me personally anymore, but then I found out from others like you, he’s been this way with everyone. And I know this is a thankless job and he must be burned. But he doesn’t have to shoulder everything himself; a little trust and allowing other users you know respect you and consider you a friend to help with spam and rule breaking material removal, would go a long way. This way the server has no excuse for taking SaidIt down. But he’s acting weird lately, and imho it is disrespectful how he hasn’t contacted d3rr two times in a row - unless some serious shit is going on, again. I hope he’s ok and we hear from him soon.

It just honestly feels like he’s put up a ton of walls around him.

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    [–][deleted] 4 insightful - 4 fun4 insightful - 3 fun5 insightful - 4 fun -  (4 children)

    Have you ever seen Wilfred? Each episode is 18-20 min, and there’s only four seasons (I like the American version better).

    I feel like magnora needs to take a week (or at least a weekend) off from the world, smoke some cannabis, and watch Wilfred nice and stoned.

    That’s such a comfort show for me lol, all my insecurities are gently addressed in that show. Each episode starts off with a great quote and has a theme about life we all need to learn (and is ageless imho), unlike someone telling you 2 get your shit together forcefully, it’s done gently with dark humorous examples and serves as a reminder that everyone needs a break, to be selfish, to love themselves from time to time because no one will take care of you like you, yet at the same time it also preaches against isolation, not communicating or avoiding problems, because things only get worse if you do, and again uses dark, humorous examples.

    I’m rewatching it rn for the idkth time, I’m on season 2 of 4. I love that show, if you hear from him, tell him to watch the first 20 min episode! I know he’d like it if he hasn’t seen it already!

    [–][deleted] 5 insightful - 6 fun5 insightful - 5 fun6 insightful - 6 fun -  (3 children)

    I wonder if u/magnora7 is a stoner.

    [–][deleted] 4 insightful - 2 fun4 insightful - 1 fun5 insightful - 2 fun -  (2 children)

    😂 I doubt it!

    I didn’t smoke until I was 22, I was so “anti-psychoactive-drugs”. I finally did for JME epilepsy I developed when I was 17, during my senior year in HS after both my parents kept pushing as well as neurologist. It honestly works better than any pharma pill for epilepsy, and anxiety too imo. And it’s better for you than a benzo, which can literally kill you if you get addicted like alcohol from withdrawals. They also mess up your brain long term (just google alcohol/benzo fMRI vs control under images). I’ve found cannabis to be the least addictive, and harmful, psychoactive substance; cigs you crave, you don’t crave or fiend for a joint.

    A joint now and then never hurt anyone if used safely, as an adult when your brain is near/fully developed (doesn’t stop developing until sometimes 26-30 in rare occasions, but that’s nothing like smoking as a young teenager). Via studying neuropsychology for my career, honestly that becoming a “burn out” shit is a lie/myth, as I wouldn’t have made it this far in uni without it (literally developed epilepsy out of no where the year I was graduating highschool), I would have seized writing many papers.

    I have medical textbooks that even state this. My favorite one is from my neurology & addiction course, usually professors make us get the latest medical text, but this professor wanted us to get the original as it actually had more information. The text stated cannabis was safe to use, had anticonvulsant and anti anxiety effects, and was mostly a social drug like cigs, but without the physical addiction (yet they were putting people away for yeaaars at the time the book was written if they were caught with a q of cannabis on them). They also admitted it was a hallucinogen, rather than a narcotic, which blew my mind considering the time period the text was released.

    This is a random chapter I uploaded for opiate addicts I was helping get clean when I was a janny a year and half ago for a harm reduction subreddit that I was able to use as an assignment for school. Many “addicts” or “highly active users” truly believe there’s no way out and they damaged their brains.. but ironically cannabis and the poppy plant are the safest drugs to use long term, not to say they don’t come with side effects..

    If you smoke too much, everyday, it’s likely you’re depressed and self-medicating. So of course you don’t go out or talk to people. Of course you’re awkward when you interact with people; staying inside smoking all day will make you paranoid and give you social anxiety. Just like someone self-medicating with heroin, it’s all about mental health.

    I had a best friend who I considered a stoner and was selling drugs and doing them all throughout highschool, he smoked AT LEAST an eighth eveyday and would take pain pills too. A few years back he joined the Air Force and he’s really high up there (lol) - has top secret clearance and works on Offutt airbase in Nebraska and literally flies on Boeing’s with the POTUS and congressmen and women. He was a janitor before that. If anyone should have burned themselves out, it would have been him. But he did a 180 really quick.

    I live in a very strict state, cannabis isn’t recreational here, and still you need to smoke at least 14 joints a day to be considered for cannabis-use-disorder in my state.

    I sincerely doubt m7 is a “stoner”, but everyone needs to let go and have a laugh every now and again. Wilfred would be that show to do that with!

    [–][deleted] 4 insightful - 2 fun4 insightful - 1 fun5 insightful - 2 fun -  (1 child)

    My dad smokes medical marijuana for pain, anxiety, and PTSD, and it works for him too. Don't get me wrong, I'm against recreational, but medical can be used to improve people's lives, which is why I support it.

    [–][deleted] 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

    I’m sorry to hear about your dad, but I’m glad that it’s working for him!

    I felt the same exact way as you until I was put into a situation where I had to use for medical reasons myself, and started studying neuropsychology in Uni (honestly, all epileptic medications are like lobotomies in pill form and are ancient; I’m still taking an anticonvulsant, it’s one of “the newest ones” & was discovered in the 70’s in Japan, Zonisamide, and they don’t know even know how it works/its’ method of action, but studies back up its efficacy in epileptics). It’s the only one I can tolerate and even then, the side effects suck.

    I still seize on it sometimes like I seized on every anticonvulsant, but adding cannabis seriously reduced the number of seizures I have (some made my seizures worse..), but this drug I’m currently using is also prescribed off-label to celebrities in Hollywood for quick weight loss as anorexia is common side effect.. it’s also referred to as “dumb drug”, as it literally makes you forget words and shit mid sentence sometimes. I literally don’t get hungry anymore unless I smoke, I weigh 130 pounds, and I work out pretty much daily. I couldn’t gain weight if I wanted to. Most Pharma pills are the devil imo lol.

    But even recreationally, I can understand it every now and again - I honestly do think it’s more healthy for you than alcohol through all my research - seriously look at fMRIs of alcoholics vs controls, it’s scary what drinking long term will do to your brain in 5-20 years. Even if you don’t think you’re a heavy drinker. It turns your brain into a shrunken sponge that looks dehydrated lol. Two or three beers a day for 20 years will affect you.

    It’s ironic to me how the most dangerous drugs (cigs and alcohol) are legal. It’s a well known secret the natural drugs are usually the safest (some can kill or harm you like nightshades or cocoa) which is why I brought up the poppy plant too - it’s so stigmatized, but that only happened after the Harrison Narcotics Act (which stigmatized cannabis too - hemp can be used for so much, from medical purposes to building structures, to making paper or even clothing, cannabis was an economic problem and even after the act was passed, presidents and other powerful folk were still allowed to grow cannabis on their properties whereas it became the “devils lettuce” for the rest of the population. Thomas Jefferson owned cannabis fields, and in his diary would write about drinking opium tea before bed while reading as part of his routine).

    The upper class felt the poor were too stupid to have access to opiates and it would affect their work production (even though it wasn’t, this is all in that medical textbook chapter I just linked you to), so it was only available to the rich or upper middle classes, and it still is that way even with restrictions in an “epidemic”.

    The worst thing about the poppy plant is how addictive it is, and how hard it is to quit once addiction has formed. But other than that - no long term brain damage, outside of the rare case where you have a heavy user using hard opiates like heroin or fentanyl, which even then, only caused a slight shrinkage in the frontal lobe which is theorized to be responsible as to why addicts will steal from and betray loved ones (the frontal lobe is important for judgement and decision making as well as many other things). But after remission, opiate addicts can return to a normal life and be happy again after time. The same can’t be said for meth, cocaine or alcohol/benzo addicts who literally fry their dopamine/GABA receptors.

    God did I get off topic. lmfao, sorry for the essays, I could talk about neuropsychology for days.

    But I doubt m7 is a heavy cannabis user lol, it’s pretty rare. And those who are, usually have a lot of things they’re self-medicating for.

    [–]JasonCarswell 4 insightful - 3 fun4 insightful - 2 fun5 insightful - 3 fun -  (4 children)

    No one is good or bad. We're all shades of grey, including M7, me, and you.

    [–][deleted]  (3 children)

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      [–]JasonCarswell 2 insightful - 3 fun2 insightful - 2 fun3 insightful - 3 fun -  (2 children)

      How about a child molester who cures cancer as his day job? Nothing is black and white.

      M7 is definitely on the good side. But 1% of him is a lying, secretive, possessive, ego.

      [–]Airbus320 1 insightful - 3 fun1 insightful - 2 fun2 insightful - 3 fun -  (1 child)

      Magnora7 is a saint

      [–]JasonCarswell 1 insightful - 2 fun1 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

      He died after performing 3 miracles? When did this happen?

      [–][deleted] 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

      so maybe it's best if we just give him some space.

      I agree, for various reasons, some of which I explained elsewhere. I suspect he has concerns about a number of issues that are online, at work, and personal, if I read his posts correctly in the past few months. All things considered, a break from Saidit appears to be a smart move. The support by you, d3rr, and fred_red_beans is much appreciated, and perhaps in due course you can get additional support.

      [–]HibikiBlack 3 insightful - 2 fun3 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 2 fun -  (4 children)

      I literally told him that if there was something worrying him he could talk to me at any time shortly before the first Saidit blackout happened, once the site was up again, he came back with his usual "everything is under control" behaviour, so I trusted him back then but now this happens... I just hope everything turns out well for Saidit in the end.

      [–][deleted] 5 insightful - 2 fun5 insightful - 1 fun6 insightful - 2 fun -  (2 children)

      He gave me the same almost robot-like response after the last shut down when I hit him up in PM’s and asked him if everything was okay, life-wise. I told him I wasn’t worried about him selling my data or my data being safe, I was worried about him and how he’s doing. He never responded to that pm. This is what I meant when I said it feels like he’s put up walls around him - he was never like that before.

      I do hope he’s okay.

      [–][deleted]  (1 child)

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        [–][deleted] 4 insightful - 2 fun4 insightful - 1 fun5 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

        Well, he responded to the first assuring me my data was safe and he would never sell it, and has been ignoring me otherwise 🤷🏼‍♂️

        Seems he’s putting up walls and doing this with a lot of users, even users who were close to him and genuinely want to know if he’s okay and are more than willing to let him vent and keep it private.

        I really hope everything’s okay on his end. I know he was very stressed, but this is still weird to me.

        [–][deleted] 3 insightful - 2 fun3 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

        I literally told him that if there was something worrying him he could talk to me at any time

        That's sweet of you... good to know there are people who genuinely care about him.