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[–]CJLez 15 insightful - 1 fun15 insightful - 0 fun16 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

My future goals will probably seem pretty pathetic and small-fry compared to most people here but I've got to start somewhere. I've previously suffered from severe depression and ended up turning into a zombified shut-in who did nothing but work and sleep. I'm finally managing to overcome it to the point where, right now, it is at the lowest level since I was diagnosed 20 years ago and there is finally a damn light at the end of the tunnel so I feel like I can finally start on some actual self-care rather than bullshit self-soothing...

  • get down to a healthy BMI (20/100 lbs lost so far - lockdown threw me for a loop but I'm back on track now)
  • get back into exercising
  • start meal planning and stick to the plan
  • pay off my credit card so that I have no debts (apart from my student loan)
  • once that is done, start putting the previous debt payments towards saving for a rental deposit on a 1 bed flat so that I have a better and bigger space to live in
  • once that is done, maybe take some adult learning courses and also start saving for a rainy day
  • try and get my asthma in check. I'm waiting for an appointment with a respiratory team as my doctor says there is no reason it should be so bad when I'm taking so many drugs for it, but they're obviously a bit busy right now, so this is a longer term goal
  • 100% deep clean, declutter and organise my current flat. If I don't love it or need it or use it, it goes.
  • force myself to be more social. Before Covid happened I was talking to people in real life for the first time since 2012 and loving it. Once things start opening up again I'll be putting myself back out there
  • bonus goal - which will sound utterly ridiculous to everybody - get to the damn dentist. Local anaesthetic doesn't work on me at all; I've had dental surgery previously with two lots of cream and four injections in one spot and I still felt every single thing while the dentist kept telling me I was lying and that I 'couldn't feel anything.' I developed an intense phobia and, since 2014 I've tried to get various dentists to treat me for an tooth abscess, but they've refused due to me being too nervous. I can't be put under general anaesthetic because you legally need someone to go with you, which I don't have. I'm hoping that if I get down to a healthy weight that might make the injections work but apparently some people are just immune simply due to genetics.

[–]al-Amira 2 insightful - 1 fun2 insightful - 0 fun3 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

I don’t see anything small fry about any of that, sounds like great goals to have and congratulations on getting back on track again despite corona.