toxic is right.

I think our path is to find our way back to god. The toxic horror of the godless society is a clear guide that they are lost.

until I became their target

realising that our childhood beliefs were all a lie, part of a process designed to disinherit us is galling

I don't know if there are easy answers. Whenever I think I understand, i remember how limited my information is. Not knowing what is true makes it ahrd to come to any conclusions regarding the bigger picture.

I do know that at my darkest, having fallen to the depths of hell, having met lucifer, having spent years waking up from dreams of abuse by demons, i found Faith, i found the words of Jesus and I found the salvation that his sacrifice brought us all, if we accept it.

Now i'm just trying to find the best path forward, every now and again wondering if active resistance is the path i'm supposed to take. After all, it was the state that lied to me about nearly everything else that taught me that violence is bad.