How has authoritarianism affected you and what do you believe (now that you won't get banned for it)?

I guess it's complicated. My view may be shifting with all this ban stuff and seeing the utter hypocricy of people wanting to ban others just not themselves. I feel more hesitant to try to police others when I am vividly reminded right now that the same thing will happen to me.

I also really don't like things I think are harmful though.

I don't like the extent to which, all my life in retrospect, I haven't been able to speak out against the harms and dishonesty of "sexual revolution" propaganda, of anti-White anti-racism propaganda, of immigration, etc. Not nearly the way I've been able to openly call conservative or church-goers "dumb" or whatever people were calling others. It's amped up a lot in recent years but I can see that it's always kinda been there.

I have a strong desire to control people and make my own little fifedom after experiencing all this, and also after experiencing people refusing to engage with me in good faith about political topics. Those safe spaces really are freeing. "No, you're not crazy, my male relative is like that too, he really isn't engaging honestly and you're really not wrong or stupid." It makes me want my own. I'm not sure what to make of that.

I do feel like ideas can be harmful too. Propaganda certainly seems like it can be. I'm not sure what to make of that either.

I really dislike being controlled, and I prefer interacting with other people who aren't being controlled, but I also really dislike not having control over my own environment, and I really don't want people to do things I think are harmful to me or others.