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[–]LeaveAmsgAfterBeep 1 insightful - 1 fun1 insightful - 0 fun2 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

Not that I can diagnose and I probably do mention it often, but my own experiences which were years of OCD and internalized homophobia and misogyny leads me to believe your partner is right. Social media is a trigger and you’re using it to trigger yourself.

It sounds like you may have some similarities to the symptoms of a few types of OCD or anxiety, which your environment would not be surprising and I honestly think this stuff is going to be more common for lesbians of the young generations (which I’m part of too). There is /r/heterosexualt_OCD which is a small sub and I do think it is worth looking at some of the advice and support there which OCD or not can explain some of these thought patterns (which I tend to reply to posts, others do too). (For the record heterosexual OCD is the kind of sexuality focused obsessive compulsive disorder experienced by LGB people- not by straight people- they experience homosexual OCD because the names are based around what you are obsessing over.)

I had moderate/severe OCD most of my life and have been recovered for several years and I want to lend support to anyone else going through it because it sucked to be alone. One thing you may want to know is if you do in fact end up diagnosed with OCD, reassurance will actually only help in the immediate term and the obsessive/compulsive element can end up rebounding almost worse than before, for this reason conditions involving an obsessive and compulsive cycle are often discouraged from asking or receiving reassurance for their fears and this involved help from loved ones.

If I can be helpful at all, feel free to send me a message even if it’s just to vent here or on /r/