From my point of view, attraction is based on your Impression of the other person. Losing attraction when their good/required qualities are proven wrong is natural.

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[–]OPPRESSED_REPTILIANIntersex male | GNC | Don't call me "a gay", "twink" or "queen" 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (3 children)

What can change? You mean I can get rid of homosexuality or that I can be "romantically attracted" to men?

Because to be clear, I am going for the former, and I absolutely do not want the latter. (Not that I can believe I can develop "love" for people I don't consciously consent to, anyway)

[–]IridescentAnacondastrictly dickly 4 insightful - 1 fun4 insightful - 0 fun5 insightful - 1 fun -  (2 children)

I can only speak to my own experience, which is that I was able to have a loving relationship after years of not having one and not believing one was possible. I understand that is not what you want at this time (maybe never), but should you change your mind I do think it is possible for you to find happiness.

I don't think it is highly likely for you to be rid of homosexuality. I never rule out anything in this world, so I wouldn't say the chances are zero, but I would say that most people in your position are not able to change their sexual orientation.

You seem unhappy, and I've read enough of your posts to understand why (at least at some level). I really do hope you find happiness one way or another. You are intelligent and perceptive and there is no reason why you shouldn't get a break in life.

[–]OPPRESSED_REPTILIANIntersex male | GNC | Don't call me "a gay", "twink" or "queen" 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (1 child)

...No. You misunderstand.

I DO want a loving relationship. With women. I DO want to be happy.

I will NEVER be able to "change my mind" and love men, just as you claim that YOU simply can't fall in love with a man. It's funny how "sexuality is fixed and can never be changed" until suddenly it's on the opposite "side" and then suddenly, it's a choice at the same time? No. I quite literally do not have the capacity to "love" men, especially given how they treat me, but also simply because I am not supposed to be compatible with male traits. I am sick. My sexuality is broken and inconsistent, that is the point I am making. I am only homosexual by technicality, most likely due to trauma, and it starts and ends at "I get turned on by dicks and am not into women anymore." I was not born homosexual. I never had the capacity to "love" men. I have never even been sexually attracted to a real man, I have never seen a man and thought he was "hot" or wanted to fuck him specifically.

So no, not only do I think it's not possible for me to ever "love" men, or even be attracted to one fully, I do not WANT to. I have zero interest in men, I hate gay sex, and I hate how men treat me. I do, however, mentally want to have a heterosexual relationship. I know, deep down, the heterosexual drive is still there. I was never meant to be homosexual, it was an accident from how I was raised.

And funny, other people tell me there's a "high chance it can be fixed." So I can't really trust one person's word over the other. Much like my depression, sure - the sad reality may be there is a low chance I can get better. Maybe the most likely outcome is that I will struggle all my life and never be happy nor healthy. But that doesn't mean I should give up before I've even fully tried to recover, does it? Why should I give up? Why should I not pursue the path I KNOW will make me happy? Just because you and some people are so emotionally attached to homosexuality you think it's "bad"? My decision affects no one else.

[–]peaked2020 3 insightful - 1 fun3 insightful - 0 fun4 insightful - 1 fun -  (0 children)

It sounds like you’re just straight with some sort of trauma causing you to have confusing sexual things. If you hate everything about men and have never been attracted to a real one... if you hate gay sex... if you’re incapable of loving a man... then I doubt you are gay . Or maybe you just need a guy who is nicer and more respectful.