No, I'm not (just) referring to STDs, although you should know that gay men are far more likely to contract STDs than any other group. This is not just because anal sex is far more risky, it's because gay men generally care less about safety & some of them even DELIBERATELY spread or seek out STDs. (Is that not enough of a warning sign that homosexuality may be linked to not being of healthy mind?)

But "irreparable sexual damage" doesn't just refer to disease, it also refers to: - serious anal trauma - other sexual trauma such as wounds from sadomascohism, something that is common in gay men - emotional/mental damage as a result of having a fucked up sexuality, such as the fact that I believe mine was "ruined" due to too early exposure to sex and unhealthy practices. We know this is a thing because males who regularly consume porn often suffer from erectile dysfunction and very unhealthy beliefs about sex/interest in sex.

My entire experience as a homosexual male tells me enough - loving gay men who care about others, at least, those who care about guys like me (feminine males/people who are very visibly "different") either don't exist or are a very small minority. The only people who have seemed to have any romantic interest in me are women; which unfortunately I cannot reciporate. Men however have no interest in my feelings, my wellbeing, or "loving" me, they just want to use my body, and most of the time this involves very violent excuses for "sex" and things like "domination" and emotional control. Not to mention I can literally feel that my sexuality is "broken," I can feel there's still a part of me that has heterosexual desires but it's like it is "blocked." I can't explain it in words very well but it's similar to that sinking feeling you get when deep down you know your injury is worse than you first thought or that an illness is getting worse. I know it's not intentional, it's not just that "some people randomly turn out gay," this is a problem with my brain as much as other neurological and mental issues. Otherwise I wouldn't feel conflicted. I am not influenced by "society" and I have never lived in an "anti gay" place, I have been bombarded with pro-gay propaganda since I was a child. The conflict I feel isn't "internalized homophobia" or other made up crap like that, it is literally that I can still feel that I'm supposed to be heterosexual, and being with guys is not good for me. If my homosexuality was "intentional", I was "born with it" etc, then surely I would fully love and be attracted to guys and not feel hurt & confused, right?

I hate to break it to you but, at least here in the U.S., straight men abuse their partners at least as much as, or more than, homosexual men abuse their partners.

Sorry but I don't trust any study, especially from the US, with homosexual statistics considering that Western culture has painted homosexuality as untouchable & "protected." People are not doing the necessary studies in fear of being "homophobic", so I can't trust any data. They won't even do proper resresearch into the cause, prevention, or even "treatment" for homosexuality because people have deemed it immoral.

Also isn't this self reported? Which are stats you can rarely trust.

I trust my lived experience way more than I trust a study from a country that refuses to acknowledge science & facts because they are "bigoted." I don't care what the study says, if what I can observe firsthand shows the opposite. I have known plenty of healthy straight couples, I have never known a healthy gay couple. Likewise I have never had a woman show interest in me by expressing she wants to physically or emotionally abuse me, but men have ONLY showed "interest" that way. I trust women over men, I do not trust gay men, and propaganda from a pro-gay culture will not sway me.

I don't want to meet "kind and thoughtful" gay men. I still believe that the only thing close to "good" ones are people like me who are self aware, but still not healthy. I don't believe they can be healthy, but it doesn't matter. I am not interested in dating men and I find gay men very unattractive, even if most of them weren't inherently abusive, the cult-like beliefs, stupid "culture", obnoxious fake accents and generally bizarre beliefs are a huge turn off. If I was FORCED to date a guy I would much rather date a bi guy, or even a straight one (obviously the latter is morally questionable but... so would be hypothetically forcing me to date a guy)