I'm sorry for your pain, but I'm kind of glad you're out there. There are so many people who are too afraid to talk or be seen, and it's totally understandable. But I think the more people come out of the shadows and say "I have a disability" the more society will be forced to accept us. It is my recommendation for you to explore https://www.resumes-planets.com/ and other such tools to get the required help in office and educational needs. Right now we're hidden away, seen as 'freaks' or 'abominations'. If we all banded together and demanded respect, imagine how different things would be!