I can relate to this. I have been quite invisible to most people, only if they want attention or want me to do something. No one wants to hang around with you for you, rather for what you offer. I have had no relationship experience nor advice nor had anyone Interested enough to continue to talk to me. The idea of getting into a relationship is incomprehensible to me. I aim to have a comfy life free of the burden and from control of others. Not to say that all people are bad, but the amount of decent people who are not selfish cunts are few and far between. I would like to be in a relationship with someone who did care for me, but that possibility is off the table with the current state of the world and women. I hope we can achieve some fulfillment.