Thats only sex.

I've been raped over 1,825 times and each time it hurt, it caused actual pain, that I have to take a mix of painkillers for, further debilitating the long-term use of my kidneys, that the aliens already disabled with heavy metal poisoning to start the brain rape, so I can't take the painkillers all the time, I have to vary them and skip days, so I am even more trapped. Thats what the arcturians want, thats why they started this, to cause me pain