Thank you, those questions were actually super helpful. When I think of attractive people, I do think of guys as well - but, like, celebrities like Chris Hemsworth. When I think of people who I've actually liked, they've been women: I remember in school, I had a crush on this girl in my class, and I used to almost get embarrassed when she walked in the room. I couldn't even look at her, I was that attracted to her. I thought she was perfect. I couldn't vocalise these feelings, though, because I didn't know where to begin and everyone was operating under the assumption that everyone else was straight. I've never really met a guy irl who I wanted to date; and definitely, the guys my friends are head-over-heels in love with, I'm kinda like, eh. You do you, but I don't get why you want to spend every minute of every day with this man.

As a teenager, I was really obsessed with Ellen Page (LOL, should've known I was at least bi then) and all my fixations have been with female celebs. Like I said, I think Chris Hemsworth is hot, but...I dunno, I've never gotten obsessed with him to the extent where I'd watch all his interviews and actually daydream about him, like I have done with female celebrities. As a young teenager, I liked guys, but I think I liked the attention and companionship more than anything. I liked guy stuff: I didn't have female friends, not really, 'till I was around 14. I think maybe I did have crushes on female friends: I would look at my timetable to see if we were in the same classes; I tried to make them laugh, like, a lot.

From all of this, it probably does sound obvious?! I think my issue is I seem to develop all-encompassing crushes on women, but not on men, if that makes sense; however, I do think some male bodies are attractive. I just don't know how I feel about dating them, or sleeping with them. I suppose, though, that's the crux of the issue.