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[–]Ac1dre1gn 40 insightful - 2 fun40 insightful - 1 fun41 insightful - 2 fun -  (2 children)

Ive had to help a woman clean up her sons room after he commited suicide in there. Fluids soaked through the mattress and box spring. Brain matter, skull fragments, hair everywhere. It was not a pretty scene. I volunteered so she didnt have to deal with the mess. This was almost 30 years ago and I remember that room vividly. From that day I told myself that if i ever planned suicide, it would be somewhere that my family wouldnt find me. Guy owed money for drugs and put a slug in a shotgun and placed it under his chin.

[–]matthewfuture 16 insightful - 2 fun16 insightful - 1 fun17 insightful - 2 fun -  (1 child)

I was in a bad place for awhile, and the primary way I wanted to go was via a firearm. Even though I could go out in the woods, it would still make a mess, so I then decided that hanging myself on a tree limb would be the cleanest way to go (pills aren't a surefire way) and wouldn't force my parents the responsibility of cleaning my brain matter or anything from my house. Luckily I'm doing better so don't have to make the choice and that's not in my mind anymore. My bigger issue is drinking myself to death - not trying to - but a realistic outcome that I've been working on changing.

[–]1ab2cd3ef 9 insightful - 2 fun9 insightful - 1 fun10 insightful - 2 fun -  (0 children)

Your last sentence reminds me of a line in the Shawshank redemption's Stephen King's novel, saying something like this: "Ultimately there's only two things you can do: Being busy living or being busy dying. There's no in-between."