nothing you do will get you any closer to what you desire. your efforts are in vain. if you have to try its over. the object of your desire sees you as a joke. an ant below her feet. her dog has a better chance of fucking her then you do. give up. rot. lie down. your life has finished. don't bring anguish to your door. stay in bed. curse your parents. await death with a smile. only then will you have peace.
there doesn't seem to be anything here