i have to complete another year of school to finish both my bachelor's degrees because i spent the last three semesters crying in my room, jerking off, and getting social anxiety because i feel like a freak after jerking off. This summer, I have to 100% get my mind off porn, fix my nicotine tolerance so I can get a quick boost in class by doing snus, fix my bank account balances before the iphone 15 comes out, and lose 20lbs of weight.

I have no clue if i can do it. Every summer, I say I will and I end up in a cycle. I wake up, make myself a high protein breakfast, convince myself I need to jerk off to fully wake up, skip going to the gym because I don't want to see people after I jerk off, and then end up in my room drinking myself to sleep because I'm pissed I'm jerking off instead of having a woman with cute nails.

I don't know what to do different this time. I've spent the last two months jerking off 4 times a day, it hurts when i ejaculate and my penis is shedding skin. I haven't gone to class in a month and my grades are F's across the board. If I could JUST stop porn, I could get my head together and finish my education and get a real job and plan a trip to mexico to fuck underaged, sex trafficked latinas. But, I can't get past two days.

I need all the hope i can get.